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2009-05-25T22:10:00.002+08:00

friday, 22nd may.
had school...
kinda stupid la i hate friday lessons cause they're a waste of time but oh well.
had to stay back for econs make up but ^^ =x haha.
was quite pissed with someone during chem. can u just shut up and stop trying to show that you are "hardworking" and "attentive" when you're really not? seriously man, its like he's already that pissed off and you're so annonying! oh gosh just shut up!

okay so anyway, i left with the usual gang to ikea to eat.
sadly, the nasi padang was sold out! :(
so had to stick with the crappy seafood rings.
we were talking bout the sobranets shirt when i decided to take the paper to see my no.
as i reached my hand out to retrieve it, my hand had accidentally knocked over my cup of ice lemon tea and it spilt onto my pants! :O
luckily, it was a friday and i brought a pair of shorts.
so i wore pe attire to the dj thingy.
kinda crap la, waste of time. then also, i did something embarassing + stupid :( sorry.

it ended at 4 so we played soccer from like 4.30 to 6.30.
played like crap. everyone did. except var and godwin ahah.
sorry rui han! :(
so injured to the point where i considered not going for tuition.
and went to justacia to eat with chia, choy, nigel and travis.

saturday, 23rd may.
woke up quite late, cause had to prepare to go for the ff distant worlds concert.
wore a red formal shirt and left for sscc.
cabbed with zer and ph! :D
sang like crap. cause was hungry :( oh wait when do i ever sound nice LOL =x
anw, we ate at soup spoon! :D
the cw group had a table to ourselves and talked.
really enjoyed talking to them.
anw the concert was nice!
okay, i'm quite sick sooooo i think i'll follow jem's advise and go home so i'll continue 2mr.

2009-05-19T23:07:00.002+08:00

gahhhhhhhhhhhhhh, im dying!

i miss sec sch days :(
where everyday is play day and slack day and whatever is happy.

okay okay enough of the bad stuff.

last sat.
went with chia to cut hair!
then met up with jem georgina nigel choy and treyvis to study at black canyon.
woah imba nice restaurant! but super ex =x
i studied abit on chem only :(
cause got too many distractions maybe.

then went to eat katong laksa! :D
damn nice.... :) hehehe
then walked to georgina's house to watch man u vs arsenal LOL.
damn epic match not because it was very "intense" but due to travis' responses lol.
the shouting, screaming and stupid jokes about the players.
took 10 with choy home.

last sun.
woke up late! omg i woke up at noon when i was supposed to meet zer and estee at expo at 9.30
:( reached there the latest.
read abit more of chem =x couldnt study la. shit man i need to focus!
then then then bought double choc with marshmellows :)
hehe no more caramel frappe for me.
also had a friggin headache.
as usual, between studying we would talk abit about random stuff x.x

okay then i left early to watch angels and demons with z3n joel glenda and yl!
omg yl hair damn long la omg.
the movie was quite okay la
abit gore, thats all.
kay kay, since i'll be very busy, i will just blog about my weekends cause it would be the most fun filled days compared to school :)

2009-05-11T02:08:00.002+08:00

kayyy since i'm bored and can't sleep, i shall blog about the weekend :)

FRIDAY!
chionged PI in the morning :(
finally! i've completed my pi, gosh its a waste of time!
school was a blast! lol it was hilarious how i survived the day.
econs lecture 1st thing in the morning.
omg, as usual the lecturer voice was uber high
and pat z3n got called out because they didnt bring their econs lecture notes.

2nd period was chem tut, lol yay! didn't do but he didn't check so oh well :)
then it was lunch when i chionged my physics tut with joel at our usual hw doing spot
while chester went to the library to do his PI.
physics lecture was a wtf are u talking about lesson as usual x.x

and last but not least econs tut!
hump, a.c.e d.p.j ling feng our new econs rep and i got kicked out of class =x
cause we didn't prepare anything for lesson.
guess she got really pissed at us :(
but i'm starting to hate econs.

did a physics re test.
cnfm fail sia.
then went to kenneth's house to play soccer for 4 hours! LOL
uber fun cause like 4 guys got whacked by the ball in their nuts x.x
and we had alot of water breaks meaning someone had kicked the ball out of the court.

went to eat with chia nigel treyvis georgina and jem.
the bus ride was uber shitty, too tired alr.
and left early to go tuition where i couldnt absorb much cause i was trying to catch my breath still.

after tuition, i went back to ehub to play bowling with nigel and ezra and choy!
got like a 88 :( guess i wasn't really myself.
took 3 with choy back home :)

SATURDAY!
woke up late and cabbed to united square to help out with a cold storage kid's run event for cip hours.
they gave us a nice shirt haha with a i'm proud to be a volunteer.
there were like chester, dyanah syaff shahirah broc nuzul judy hump there
hump had to man the information booth while the rest had to handle the collection counter.
our job was to take the correct child's bib shirt and parents tee and place them in a goody bag.

and if any parents wanted to change the size of their child's shirt they had to go to the help desk.
we saw this 1 parent who wanted to change the size of her child's shirt.
because the help desk had only a limited amount of shirts, most of them couldn't change.
so this lady walked up to us and claimed that we gave her the wrong shirt size.
so we asked for her child's race id to check but she said she threw it away.
so we asked for her childs NRIC
wth she said she was supposed to get an L shirt but it said an M on the laptop.
so she was fking lying to our faces. wtf sia.
and then she said can u help me change the size?
no shame sia.
but the kids were quite cute x.x lol

they provided meals for us and paid us 30 bucks at the end of the 12 hour cip. COOL!
but it was uber tiring considering that we had to keep walking up and down to take the different stuff.

SUNDAY!
woke up at 2pm :)
was so bored!! so i went to watch south park episodes to keep myself busy.
went to shop with z3n at 3.30
bought a RED long sleeve shirt from top man! :D
and a season 10 friends dvd! yes i'm 1 step closer to my dream of buying the whole series of friends!!
z3n bought this shirt from 2 elements in T1 and jeans from levis.
minghui came along to pass me wc3 disk ^^
and bought a ramly burger before going home :)
i'm back!!! the gamer in me is back!! woot gonna dota on weekends sia!
hahahahaha :)
going to ehub to study/bowl/pool 2mr ._.
hopefully can study sia =x
and dota at night.

disappointed as hell with you.
how could u do such a thing to him?
are you THAT in need of love and concern that a problem of distance would be considered a reason to break apart?
c'mon man, don't you realise that he is the most loving guy you can ever get in this world?
what can a superficial guy like him give you compared to that one guy who will do anything for you?
i can't seem to understand.
You have my sympathy, Friend.

this proves that time is the test of how strong a friendship, bond or love is.
screw this shit. things are getting worse. i'm losing my strength to carry on.

2009-05-05T22:06:00.002+08:00

lalala, got up at 6 as usual and left home at like 6.54am.
took 81 to school cause like it was kinda empty. ps arlene for psing you :( supposed to cab.
anyway, reached school at like 7.30 and took temperature!
woah damn cool sia, now got temperature log alr! :O

so like ate sandwiches and went back to ava room for warm ups.
we sounded quite bad cause like we were still out of tune and stuff.

okay la gonna skip the boring parts like preparing and the journey to vch.
lol zi yi's hair damn nice =x

our performance was quite okay la,
it could have been better but like there isn't anything that we can do to correct those mistakes.
there were several out of tune parts but generally still quite nice.

the bus trip back to mj was damn epic.
lol alvin "like" ming har wtf?! joke sia.
but like kinda pity alvin la, everyone makes fun of him.

once we reached school, took pics and more pics and more pics!
we were dismissed at like 2,
the guys went to eat at kfc! woah shiok sia!
everyone looked damn happy la! haha
solo-ed 3 pc chicken plus 1 large whipped potato and cheese fries :)

then played bowling at ehub. damn fun sia! like everyone just play for fun.
then treyvis, ezra, georgina and jem came. treyvis damn uber pro.
cabbed with rui han varian and ks to vch.
walaoeh the cab driver like scam our money la.
then still talked on the phone while driving. wtf is this?!

woah 2day the results nvr delay sia!
they started announcing the results at like 5.20.
as they were reading out the results, i like didnt have any emotions.
until when they read out that njc got gwh then i was like wtf?! we're screwed.
but as she read meridian jc, gold with...
LOL I SCREAMED AND JUMPED! and hugged var and ruihan lol.
grats to cjc who also got gwh :)

went outside and did alot of stupid stuff and took more pics =.=
uber high sia. but because of some stuff, my mood changed damn drastically.
i just don't want to what they are. fking hate changes.
lalala, N.A ftw ^^ whats with the false pretences and fking comments.
like okay la, its fine if its like once per week or something and not like a daily affair.
its my life and the decisions that i make do not include or affect any of you.
how would u feel if you were the different one?
therefore, silence is bliss :)
can you sense the sarcasm in my tone? :3

silence~

2009-05-02T00:47:00.007+08:00

woke up at 10 to play soccer at kenneth's house.
took a cab to elias green but was stopped by the security guard because i didnt know their unit no. IT COSTED ME 6 BUCKS!
played soccer for a while cause some other group had already booked the court but luckily some of them were kennth's friends.
left early to go study at superdog with treyvis, jem, ezra and georgina!
so like i completed inequalities tut! YAY FOR ME! :D
HAHAHA CID ^^ lalalala
studied there till like 4 then we went to some air-conditioned playground.

while walking to our destination,
treyvis dropped george's RED VAIO LAPTOP :O
LOLOL EPIC SIA!

BUT SADLY, it was closed.
SO we sat near the beach.
BUT the SMART jem decided to go into the sea to feel the water.
and georgina followed suit.
and guess what, they started kicking water towards themselves =.=
treyvis and ezra took seaweed from the sea and threw them at georgina and jem. but most of them hit georgina.

lastly, treyvis and arze caught me, took off my shirt and swung me into the sea! :(
my pants were wet and my thighs had sand!

to sum up the above events, there are 4 vids.

okay, so ezra left to go celebrate his lil cousin's 1 year old bday celebration while jem went out with her sec 4 class ppl.

so georgina treyvis and me went to eat and slacked until the taxi peak hour was over.

then we received a call from ezra saying that his uncle would fetch us to the chalet if we wanted to. we agreed.

though his uncle's car was a subaru. OMG IT WAS FREAKING NICE!

modified ftw! LOL WOAH UBER SPEEDING SIA! TOTALLY SHOCKED! 1st time sat in a speeding car =x 170 siol :D

the prawn and sotong were uber nice!! omg freaking nice!

sang a bday song! the cake was creamy. strawberry sia.

hahaha, desiree, ezra's 1 year old cousin was afraid of george and cried whenever she saw her =x

it was hilarious when nicholas, ezra's p2 cousin also started to bully georgina. he freaking wrote a song! LOL HAHA NAUGHTY GHOST!

totally pwned her sia.

how i wish everyday could be like 2day :)

silence~

2009-04-29T21:34:00.002+08:00

OKAY YAY FINALLY UPDATED MY UBER DEAD BLOG!

sooooooo right, because of stooooopid jc, no time to update and very lazy =x

ahhh since like not many people will read anyway,

so like i will update to like vent my frustrations, anger and probably try to improve my english in the course of doing so cause like so far i failed my econs and gp tests.

so okay, woke up at like 6,

reached school at 7.35 because we were supposed to have bass sectionals at 7.30

but due to some communication breakdown, there were very very few people who turned up.

then like the peopl who turned up were mostly the committee and the avt was being used so like they were asking everyone to get into the geog room. then i followed, being the idiot that i was.

LOL OMG I ACCIDENTALLY SAT THROUGH PART OF THE COMM MEETING =X

then like had warmups and stuff.

and we went to vch to lalala!

okay la, quite sucky cause like i was uber hungry :(

when we left vch on the bus, the bus uncle didnt know how to drive to SSCC

2009-02-12T21:37:00.002+08:00

baaahhhh.

missing 4E'08.
oh ya.
haven't been blogging.
i got into mj.
i was in miranda 6. orientation was a blast!

my class is 09S401.
the past week has been a rollercoaster ride.
been having like uber loads of breaks!

just received my permenant timetable.
wednesday is crap la.
go school at 9.15.
1 period pe. then got break until last period. wtf

my class cg rep is joel. not the fat one though =x
then vice is brock :)

and btw.
im in choir, bass 2 rofl.

2009-01-30T02:05:00.002+08:00

woke up at 4 :3
damn i gotta start to sleep early,
schools bout to start.

played dota.
2nd feb quitting.

ehhh going koks house on sat for visiting.
and sunday is z2h pract! woot!

hopefully i get into mj :) lolol.

2009-01-29T03:41:00.002+08:00

woke up at 1 x.x
had a great sleep.
slept for like 16hrs.

went to jerrolds house.
i forgot to ask for his unit no. and block no.
so i got lost for a good 20 mins?
found a payphone.

ate steamboat. again.
watched money no enough.
bryan, cp, mich, jerrold, reuben, kok and sher went.

gah i really want my phone back. so inconvenient.
then went to lincs house.
they were playing blackjack.
lol i won 2 bucks at bj.
had to pay xiande back for lending money from him. so like no diff.
then played again. lost all my coins.
played guitar hero. got drums.
waa drums damn fun.

celebrated lincs bday.
wooo the flavour of the cake was coffeee. wootzxc

went off at like 1.
hehe im 20 bucks rich x.x

2009-01-26T07:48:00.002+08:00

24/1

z3n, mh and wl came over to my house.
i woke up when z3n arrived x.x
went to shaw's pepper lunch.
saw 2 z2h guys.
dunno what their names arh =x

ate salmon cream pasta as usual.
and its like everytime i go there i eat the same thing.
so i've ate it like 5 times?
and i realised each time i ate it. i spend 15 bucks.
so 15x5=75 bucks? x.x

ying hong joined us
cause he maybe wanted to buy something.

ahh went to wisma.
z3n wanted to buy pedro slip ons.
but couldn't find em.
so we had to go city hall.
met gu juan and matilda on the way to orchard mrt.

x.x another meet alot of ppl day.
since i was alr there.
and was feeling rich. had 40 bucks.
i bought a white smart casual slip ons. cost 99.
then cause the shoe was too big, i had to buy an insole zzz
so total it costed me 104.30 dollars :(
owe z3n 60.

met mh, wl and yinghong at bugis.
they each bought a printed shirt lol.
then mh bought a shirt from topman.

25/1
woke up at like 4.
played dota. :D
i think i have to quit soon.
to prepare myself for jc.
once go in jc, cannot play le.
ehhh, pretty screwed night.
but i got to eat mac anyways :D
played dota till 8 am x.x the time im blogging this now.
hopefully i can wake up to go visiting.
i want ang bao moneh! :)

life is fking unfair.
silence~

2009-01-24T03:20:00.002+08:00

woke up at like 9.30.
left home at 10.
reached school at like 10.20
was supposed to meet anting but she couldnt contact me because i didnt have a phone.
we were supposed to help mr lee with his 4nt students.
anting, zul, weilin, rowena, zulhel, mus and me came back.

okay la, the 2 guys who i had to help rather guai.
maybe it's because im a stranger.

the dnt and homec department had a chinese new year celebration.
anting, weilin, rowena and me were invited to join in.
lol its like last year dnt workshop gossiping session.

accompanied anting cause she had to meet up with sp whos always uber late =x
met wuhuan and jj lol.
nas, shah, farid, toyol, mx and karen.

went joels house to have a steamboat with z3n, mx, karen and ying hong.
the prawns were uber big LOL.
and damn fresh.
there was salmon this time.

cause there were many crabmeat that were leftover.
played indian poker luh.
ate like 3 x.x
and there were like 9.

played mahjong.
karen kept winning la. kaozxc.
so we just watched the ch8 drama and played big 2.

ehhh, bout genting.
the space shot was uber scary.
it felt as though u are falling
and helpless. when it goes up to the top.
there'll be like this damn loud sound.
then all of a sudden, u fall.

then, because i didnt want to take it again.
brenda joel called me a sissy zzzzzzz.
then they kept trying to make me go on it again. but i refused.

then right, there was this another ride.
called spiderman?
waa i was like shouting DIE DIE at the 1st drop. x.x
roflmao. can't blame a first timer =x

it's better that we go our separate ways.
but it's fking irritating that i have to hear ur name wherever i go.
nt blaming u, just blaming the ppl around me.

silence~

2009-01-23T01:38:00.002+08:00

22/1

tuesday,
woke up at about 11am.
was the last one to wake up x.x
i woke up because brenda pulled the blanket. lol so stupid.

anyway we went to eat.
i ate kenny rogers, the rest ate at some shanghai restaurant.
after lunch, we went to the theme park.
there were many firsts for me that day,
firstly, it was my first time riding on a rollercoaster!
cause i was too short in the past and haven't been on trips.
like the cyclone, corkscrew, the stupid indoor rollercoaster and the mine one.
haha speaking of which, the hilarious one was when brenda, her sis, joel and me tricked sp and jane onto riding the mine one.
cause there was one part where it dived quite drastically,
jane shouted fuck you brenda fuck you.
lol it kept us laughing for the entire ride haha.

next off, it would be that it was the first time that i played bumper cars.
zzzz, dont ask why. damn fun sia.
there was this old guy who kept aiming random ppl.
once, he banged brenda so hard she flew. rofl. x.x

last but not least, the space shot was uber scary.

at a buffet.
cost like 60rm.
great variety of food.
though the food there kinda sucked.
the salmon was uber. ^^
the dessert sucked. luckily i didnt ate any :D

played at the arcade again.
we played the one which u had to throw balls at the screen.
we were attempting to get as much tix as we could so that we could redeem something.
got like 700?
redeemed a saving box for wei ting and balls. those bouncy ones.

watched ip man.
wow they had osim massage chairs.
that was like a 80min of pure enjoyment.
imedic ftw.

got back to our hotel.
played cards, tai ti, blackjack, in between and bridge.
the loser had to drink a teaspoon of 2 packets of coffee + a tea sachet which was placed in the cup. and there was no sugar.
gosh damn blardy bitter and disgusting.
then, we played blind mice in the hotel room rofl.
brenda looked like a skinny terrorizing dinosaur haha x.x

slept like from 7-11.
woke up and quickly packed.
ate at marrybrown. gosh damn disgusting.

left at like 2.30pm.
stupid bus was late.
reached home at about 11.30pm.

been having diarrhoea.
and im having a headache.
gosh, i dont feel well.
and the stupid screams during the rides
has left me unable to sing. :(
its not that they were scary.
its just that we had to or else it wouldnt feel right :)

2009-01-22T01:52:00.002+08:00

21/1

im back! :D
had a hell of a time at genting, hehe.
gonna briefly describe what happened.

monday morn( 1+) x.x
ehhh went to joels house, in case i slept, at least joel could carry me onto his dads car =x
drank coffee and ate laksa,
left at about 5.30 to pick up jane and sp.
met brenda and her sis at golden mile and boarded the bus.
ehhh sat on the lower part of the bus.

lol as we drove past the singapore flyer, brenda said flyer but it sounded like fire. rofl
we were all like huh? where got fire. haha.
slept thru most of the bus ride.
when we reached, sp jane and me were stoning. too tired.
after checking in, we went to eat kenny rogers.
cause i didnt eat much, i finished 1st. :D

eh played at the arcade after shopping.
wow, we slept alot at the arcade topping up money into it
and spending it on games like daytona which me and joel couldnt even complete 1 lap on advanced. x.x rusty
gosh, we were all super high after that.
then, we entered ripleys believe it or not.
it felt as if we had been in there for like 30 mins.
but in actual fact, we spent like 3 hrs in there.
loads of cool displays. best one would be the last.
its a flat path which makes u feel as though its tilting when u walk on it.
it was like alr 11pm?
so we went back to the hotel.
jane sp and me bought hot chocolate.

stupid joel slept like after he took his bath.
was left all alone
so i went over
played cards/talked to bout 3
and went to sleep.

okay, thats all.
gonna blog bout day 2 2mr.

8 more days to school posting. :O
hopefully get into mj.
sp must come over okay? ^^

its over. :)
silence~ fangggggg

2009-01-19T01:20:00.003+08:00

18/1

weee wow,
was the first! :D lol
to reach. but was still late la.
omg i fell for their trick.
they made me think that they wanted to go earlier
so i had to basically reach small mac at 10.
when i reached there at 10.10 no one was there.
so i thought they left without me :( oh well.

2day was great!
i didnt screw up the glide + gm chord rofl.
usually after i glide from the highest note down the keyboard,
i'll play the chord wrongly x.x
so ya, and i have to play it like 3 times?
so im quite lucky :)

darren played in time for his parts so yea we didnt screw the song that much.
played check yes juliet.
lol we were smiling to ourselves when the instructor played for us.

played L4D at lan.
lol very fun la.
packed my stuff and im off to genting. :D
be back on thursday. i hope.
dunch call me pl0x.

sunshine after the rain.
hopefully this is the last downpour.

silence~ fangggggg D:

2009-01-17T00:32:00.002+08:00

16/1

woke up and went to school.
decode so nice.
but its not full so it ain't that nice.

went to eat with zer at popeyes at the airport.
it so pwns kfc.

almost missed my stop because i dozed off in the bus.

the things you see aren't always what they seem.
how hard must i try to understand the unseen truth.
felt so used and hurt.
what would have happened if i weren't there.

silence~

2009-01-16T03:42:00.002+08:00

15/1

had to wake up early to go jam at dhoby.
gah, still cant play the silence part for check yes.
after jamming we ate at killiney.
the hainanese chicken cutlet rice was imba! :D

today was pretty good :D
cept the silence part for check yes and the drumming.
i really suckzxc at teaching rofl.

hmmm, had a fun chat with earnest hehe.
i've found someone who i can talk to bout that alr lol. =x
ahhhhhhh such fun times making jokes bout natasha lololol.

hehe im going genting! :D

acquaintance? or just strangers?
things changed so quickly.
and now, this is goodbye.

silence~

2009-01-15T03:21:00.002+08:00

14/1

had a really bad day.
kfc sucked. :(
had a tiff.

but at least everythings back to normal.

submitted my jae form.
wore my shoes for the 1st time :D
theres jamming 2mr.
hopefully we can complete check yes juliet by 2mr.
oh oh!
i get to go to genting! :D
yay! so coolzxc.

mj here i come :)

i've completed learning the guitar solo for decode =x
i mean on the keyboard of course hehe.

gone were the days that i enjoyed every single day of my life.
now, im just an empty shell.
it really is that fragile, ain't it?
i'm talking about my heart, of course.

2009-01-14T02:39:00.005+08:00

13/1

the 1st thing i saw 2day

when i woke up were 2 people.

kang qi and bryan who were standing outside my window.

gosh! i got carried away with sleeping that i didnt bathe!

bryan had to have his leg hair removed so kang qi decided to help

and they removed his hair in the toilet rofl. =x

they looked smooth ahah!

we went to buy ramly after having spent 30+ mins in the toilet.

gosh, it still tastes as great even though i have been eating it for the past 3 weeks =x

finally! i bought my earpiece.

i've been telling myself b4 the o levels that i have to buy a new earpiece!

it costed 49 dollars =x ergonically designed ftw!

its like i cannot hear anything else except the music being played

and it feels as though it isnt there!

me and bryan went to meet z3n and yl

and ate katong laksa at queenstown.

sian the quality really deproved.

in the past when i ate it, i would get a shiok feeling

to the point where i would order a second bowl.

but now its like gone. and i didnt even wanted to eat another bowl :(

bought a white shorts.

woooooo climax of the whole day!

for me la.

we went orchard, since i really wanted to buy a pair of shoes.

i've been wanting to buy the shoe since last week but i couldn't afford it.

but now, since i've the money.

i bought the shoe!

and it looks like this

:D its RED! and the golden puma is chio, cost like 129? :(

can't use it to play bball sia. i've killed myself if i ever made that decision.

hopefully, i can go genting with them.

even though its kinda last min ( leaving on monday)

and there won't be any parents. oh well

if only... , the possibilities are endless.

so why do i still yearn for the impossible.

silence~

2009-01-13T03:18:00.003+08:00

12/1

woke up with a stomach ache :(
thanks to the awesome steamboat!
cut my nails. finally,
bryan came to my house to put his guitar
and we left to meet z3n to eat ramly burger! :D

then went school early and slacked outside the hall.
for like 1 1/2hrs? lololol

sat there and just asked any teacher who happened to walk past us about our results.
my mood changed when i saw my classmates and friends.
gosh, its been a long time since i've last saw them.
there were alot of ppl outside the hall before we could enter.

okay la, to shorten the whole story,
i got ten :D i felt retarded because i shouted ten to everyone who asked me.

english: A2
humans:B3
amaths:A2
emaths:A1
dnt:A1
science:A1
chinese:C6

5 As! i'm coming back ^^
z3n and joel got the same results as me, guess we'll be seeing each other for another 2 years.

eng A2 siol!
didnt expect la. humans also. i expected like a 6 or something thanks to my screwed up geog.

ahhhh 25 dollars ^^ 15 from mr lee and 10 from mr tan lolololol

then went to jam at z2h.
and after that the band excluding kq went to jam again at dhoby.
so tired. what a day.
happy/shocked/sad/disappointed with my results and today.

how did we get here
when i used to know you so well.

silence~

2009-01-07T03:21:00.002+08:00

6/1

finally, i managed to sleep about 11 hrs?
haha! kudos to me :D
haven't been able to sleep for more than 10 hrs.
how arh.
so, i woke up at like about 1
and completed the destiny odyssey in Dissidia Final Fantasy.
had to play all the chars from ff1 to ffx. zzz
my fav char would be cloud. ^^ imbal.
i dunno what to do.
anyway, i met mun at 2.15 at pasir ris mrt platform.
had to wait for like 30 mins? for at, then another 15 for sp.
went to marina square to watch ponyo.
kinda nice.
very sweet movie, i guess.
the girl would turn to sea foam if the guy didnt love her for who she truly is.
but very imaginative.
the kid could break a glass jar with a rock with a single hit :O
gah im just an idiot lol.
i just know that it wont be easy
we chatted at the food court afterwards for quite some time.
its nice having the chance to talk to them again :)
and we went home.
to not being able to see her
gonna go jam on thursday! again.
and sundays the steamboat :D hahaha
gosh, almost everyone in the band has completed learning their parts for their own instruments,
and im the only one who doesnt know anything bout what i have to play for check yes juliet.
>.< cannot slack liaozxc.
and hi estee :D
hopefully, i can get <10?
lolololol mun's promise.

my thoughts you can't decode.

silence~

2009-01-06T02:59:00.002+08:00

5/1

heyyo :D

had to go to school to help out with the sec 1 choir auditions.
>.< kok told us to wear formal.
then somehow or another, he was wearing his starhub shirt zzz.
me and jerr fell for it! :(

well, had to be a runner with kok.
so basically, i had to bring those sec 1s who passed the auditions to the avt.
and bringing them from their classrooms to the audition rooms.

tiring i guess.
esp the part when i had to bring them from the audition rooms to the avt.
cause its damn long.

and the release of the o level results is near.
gosh, reality starts kicking in.
as the date draws near, i feel more nervous.
oh well, whats done is done.

how did we get here?
well i used to know you so well,

silence~

2009-01-02T04:33:00.004+08:00

2/1

been very busy recently so i haven't been posting
i'm still awake because i slept at 7am.

gah, got loads to post about but my keyboards spoilt so using the on screen keyboard.
poor mouse >.<
anyway, lets start with choir camp. the band sounded bad. really bad.
had to stay and pei kq because she had to sing for another band.
once we reached tamp, we bought starbucks! ^^
had to drag around a big bag of presents.
lol despite coming from tiong bahru, we were the first to reach.
played some games like captainball. but watching the juniors playing the water games was more entertaining.

after that, we were told to proceed to the avt.
watched a short clip which brought back memories.
it was supposed to make us feel sad?
but i was laughing. then mr toh sang for us. very touching :(
i guess he's changed. but thats good haha

we were served with pizzas and drinks as the juniors performed.
i only ate a slice of pizza. but i thoroughy enjoyed the performances.
didnt have the mood to eat, i was feeling moody.

played bball with mr toh.
very fun! haha. knowing that was going to be the last time playing with them.

went to mac to talk. gonna miss everyone sia. esp talkng to jerrold, same boat lol.

new year, the start of a yet another year.
sadly, chanheng left for london today to study.
i missed theouting becuse i was sleeping.
haiz, our next cycling trip would feel as if someone was missing, and that would be him.
goodbye, really hope to see you when you come back.

some things are better off the way they are.
im treating you as a friend, but you're not.

silence~

2008-12-19T01:16:00.003+08:00

i've not been myself lately.
very disappointing that i've allowed myself to deterioate to this state.
and the reasons why i've turned into this beast are due to several factors.
probably the lack of sleep,
and the build up of stress due to all of the responsibility to call and organise outings.
i screwed my brain up badly.
to the point where i cannot remember anything that anyone said recently.
i just have too many things to do and attend to.
last but not least, probably the inability to tell anyone about this.
its like a balloon stuffed with water.
but after awhile, the balloon is unable to hold the volume of the water and bursts.

i don't really want to tell anyone because i know the root problem of it all.
hard to tackle the problem cause i'm unable to do it.

anyway, i think i have to put a stop to my endless spending.
no more shopping for me.
just have to stick to my usual clothes to wear when i go out.

went to topman today to buy a shirt.
yellow colour >.< wonder when i will ever wear it. watching the day the earth stood still 2mr. i think i have too many groups of people to go out with. :( ahhhh and its so close to getting our results back! omgomgomg. next week is alr farewell. these 4 years have passed so quickly, its saddening for me to have not been able to grasp the times i spent with my friends. and the several ( well an awful lot) of stupid imbecile mistakes i've made with i've come to regret but its been a rollercoaster ride with more downs than ups.

i don't really know why.
but i feel very dumb.
my memories are fading.
no matter how many times i tell myself.
it isnt going to happen.
somehow or another
i still cant get over it.
i just can't seem to muster the strength to accept reality.

2008-12-12T03:52:00.003+08:00

argh!
what a rainy day it was.
when we reached redhill.
it was pouring till it flooded.
so me michelle and sara took a cab there.
it was so flooded to the point where
as the cars drove by,
it splashed water on the cab.
and it went as high as the taxi.
so the cab was getting a bath haha.

the day was rather fun.
laughed alot in the train.
life is getting more interesting and im excited

argh, my maple char in private server got wiped out! again. zzz
but lol nvm ba.
starting another character would kill more time.
judging from the lack of things i do at home.
its for the greater good haha
xEuphoria ftwzxc!

im so missing everyone.
or rather just a group of people.
because recently, i've been neglecting a lot of people.
psps i'll try to make time to keep in contact with you guys. if i can.

tomorrow going shop, again.
but on a much smaller scale. just buying 2 t-shirts.

have to save money though,
to get gifts for people.
and estee, i miss the 1st tour more than the 2nd. zzz
mai lame can.

committing one mistake after another.
when will this vicious repetition stop?

heh... and the last one was thinking that this "friendship" could ever work out.

silence~

2008-12-11T02:06:00.002+08:00

i didn't have the time to blog the past week.
because i'm rather lazy.

but nothings really changed.
the constant leaving of my house has left a hole in my parents pockets.
but oh well,
it beats me rotting at home and watching anime.

i still have a schedule of activities to carry out.
with different groups of people.
im just looking forward to the several trips to watch twilight.
and nth else after that.

having keyboard pract tomorrow.
it's going to be a long day.
have to stay there for 2+hrs.

bah, oh well.
i apologise to anyone who i may have neglected.
just to lazy.. zzz

trying to hard.
whatever.

don't expect too much from something which you have put effort in,
cause most of the time, it doesn't turn out the way you hoped.

silence~

2008-12-02T01:09:00.002+08:00

back from tkss concert.
quite nice ba.
esp the anime songs and the spirited away song.

haha the actions quite amusing.
but my neck kinda pain
cause we sitting at the side.
then must turn our heads x.x

woke up at about 9 then chionged to market place bball court.
LOL at moritz. he didnt bring the ball.
so had to wait for like 1 hr?
cause he locked himself out of the house and his dad had to go pick it up from the house.
played for like 30mins? then my arm died on me.
cause had to fan and fan and fan ytd.
then cramped.

left the house at 1.30.
supposed to meet chong at 1 x.x
ate at the kopitiam at tm.
walaoeh the auntie gave me a mountain of rice!
so cool la! being small has its advantages too u know :D

ehhh met up with estee and proceeded to marina sq.
walked around and bought stuff.
wei chong bought alot. i just bought for a certain someone. x.x haha

met iffah and watched four christmases.
damn funny! go watch it! haha

then went to pick judaxil up at the mrt station.
and ate at ljs.
then went to esplanade.
the esplanade was HUGE!

after the concert.
went back to tamp and ate mac.
stayed there till about 11.45? and we left.
apparently there were 2 grps of ppl
1 grp was dead and 1 was alive. x.x
mine was dead obviously ahah.
we were all tired i guess.

wish that they will be another such outing :)
it brings back memories seeing the different batches of people talking and laughing again.

'Cause it's you in my arms tonight.
i don't need an imitation.

2008-12-01T02:21:00.002+08:00

woke up late.
sorry mervyn for making u wait so long >.<
ahhh though i was late we still managed to reach there on time.

keyboard training was sian.
cause we didnt learn anything
and spent the entire hour practicising.

then, headed to pasir ris.
we bought our food.
gosh. only 8 people turned up >.<
and we didnt book the bbq pit.
kinda free loaded and saved 20 bucks.
so we just walked to the far end and took pit 61
but its was fun. ironically thanks to wen feng.
hahaha next time its gonna be seoul garden!
and hope its a more sucessful outing than this one.
like what chester said, its sad that the class is separating.
never gonna forget bout u guys and all the wonderful times spent together.

and its gonna be a very fun day today!
gonna meet iffah, shop with wc and estee.
get to see zerlina and ya kai perform.
and most imptly SHOP! :D

a little piece of heaven : you had my heart, at least for the most part. a7x

silence~

2008-11-30T01:46:00.002+08:00

whhhhheeeeeeeee~

its like going to be 2 and im still awake >.<
slept at 7am and woke up at 2pm

sad, cannot go orchard to shop.
cause someone was in hougang.
so went to play lan with 4b people and mh.

haha i actually cried!
while laughing x.x
lol wei jie so funny.
they were changing their names.
laughed so hard i actually teared.
then suddenly got wei long father and chronicles of noornia.
ahhhh so fun!

2day have to go redhill for keyboard training.
so sian. in the morning somemore. :(

looking forward to the afternoon event!
wooots! gonna have so much fun.

lets live life,
like there is no tomorrow.

2008-11-29T05:49:00.002+08:00

replies to tags~

jane: eehhh i went with mun, sp and at :( hmmm when are you free? :D

D;Dex: what did i do to deserve a junior like you :( hahaha gonna miss u sia!

teresa: o.o why am i dumb? ehh i quite smart one leh. 1 + 1 =2! hahaha :D

jinghan: haha x.x oops sorry i forgot. but i linked alr! ehhh i lazy to find a job. :( but im willing to
work. just lazy to take the 1st time to find one.

shermaine: tagged! :)

2008-11-29T05:11:00.003+08:00

been a very busy week.

very lazy to blog about it.
basically, we played pool, shop, take loads of pics, eat, sleep, watched ben 10, greys anatomy and more.
lol they have like 27 tv channels from channel 5 to cartoon network to jap channels.
soo cool la. haha.

then oh got bath tub!
we soaked in their for like 30 mins each. x.x

28th nov.

woke up at 9.30
chionged to 201 mac and taught estee chem.
walked her to school and saw eugene, dexter and marc.
cause they were leaving after having sect at mark's house.
went to mark's house for a while and played the keyboard for awhile

ehhh then continued our journey to school
saw wc, shuan and georgina.
followed them to kfc.
and soon some of the basses and iris joined us.

ehhh met zer in the evening and went to vivo to see bryan.
sadly he had alr left so we went to see the girl :O and linc.
ate at bk.
ohamgee, i ate the triple patty turkey bacon burger.
and im uber full x.x
board the train to punggol and took bus 34.
walked from the stadium.

ahh wanna go shop 2mr :(
but no one to go with.
so i'll probably slack at home.
gonna be bored since i've finished watching macross frontier! haha :D

it's because we are alone
that we can love someone.

its from macross the last battle part.
a lovely ending to a touching anime.
filled with loads of nice songs with nice vocals.

silence~

2008-11-23T00:42:00.005+08:00

finally completed code geass!
i'm sorry that i was there to spoil the mood.
:D woots.
the protagonist, lelouche accumulated the world's hatred
and died at the hands of his own friend.
which he had planned. so sad la.
he sacrificed his life so that his sister can live in a peaceful world.
what a kind brother.
i just needed to know the answer.
well its a nice anime.
which shows the tyranny of mankind and power.
i guess im too into mecha. x.x
i won't ask you out, if thats your wish
have to wake up real early 2mr.
gosh i'm going to get screwed.
and laksa! :) hehe
you don't need me already.
1 more day to bintan and im not at all packed.
what should i do :O
so this is goodbye.
going bintan for 3 days.
please dont call or sms me yea? D:

take my hand
and i'll show you the way,
to a better tomorrow.

silence~

2008-11-22T03:23:00.002+08:00

woke up at 3.
watched code geass R2.
and went to buy mega mcspicy.
gosh it was nice!
sadly, i ate like half of it and i finished my drink.
so i threw it away cause it was too spicy >.<

met kq, kok sara and wl's band at small mac.
and left for red hill.
2days the thoery test.
hope i dont screw it up. :(

i supposedly stepped on a giant moth
didnt realise it as i was talking to michelle.
lol talked bout insects.
the reaction of sara when he saw the moth flying was hilarious!
hahaha x.x

reached home and watch code geass R2 again x.x
now at ep 10. hope i can finish it by the end of the week :D
qf's gone to japan! no fair.
been wanting to go there since like sec 2?
but i guess bintans alright.

finally, i'm going to be staying at home 2mr.
and consume the whole tub of coffee ice cream by myself!
ahhh that would be an enjoyable sensation.

and i haven't even packed for monday
im dead. :/

smile, because that's the sweetest thing about you.
it's been awhile since i last saw your candid
laughter and stunning smile.
even though it seems like the end of the world,
never forget that you have friends like us who are ever so
concerned about your wellbeing.
enjoy your holidays, my dear friend.

longing is a sheer waste of time.
overcome the mist in front of your eyes.
very soon, this will all be over.
even though you can't bear to see him leave,
sadly, farewells are inevitable.

just remember that the one who is suffering is you
until you've realised that, nothing will change.

silence~

2008-11-21T02:14:00.004+08:00

i think i have to put a stop to me leaving the house everyday.
because its taking a toll on my wallet >.<
so, i dont think i will go out for like at least a week?
excluding going to z2h of course.

woke up at 12, moritz called and i hurried to school to play bball.
it's been such a long time since i've played after Os.
quite saddening though, we had wanted to play bball more frequently after it ended.
but oh well, i think everyone has their own priorities.
reached home at about 4?
and watched code geass. at bout 4.56 earnest called me and asked whether i wanted to cycle.
>.< it was a better option than just staying at home to watch anime so i agreed.
ahhh it brought back many memories.
we always cycle to the right side from the usual place we would rent our bikes and cycle back towards fisherman village to eat.
they would buy satay bee hoon and mee goreng for myself.
ahh gonna miss chan heng and he's accent! :(

finally, completed code geass.
now for code geass R2 :D
then after that it's gonna be macross frontier!
and watch the ongoing animes that will be coming out weekly.
so i'm going to be busy!

gosh, have to take a theory test 2mr and 1st keyboard pract on sunday.
thats like going to red hill 3 times this week.

haha going to bintan with bryan's family on monday!
it's going to be 3 days and 2 nights.
so dont miss me yea?
haha i will enjoy myself :)

and a week just passed in a blink of an eye.
didnt realise 2day was friday alr.
well, i sure have a knack for losing track of time. hor bi lol x.x

losing something will make you realise the true value of what you had.

silence~

2008-11-20T01:50:00.003+08:00

finally... back from chalet.

boy, was it an enjoyable 2 nights spent there.
met up with zul and mun at 201 bus stop,
and boarded the bus there.
we had a hard time finding the place
because none of us had went there before.
somehow we managed to find it.

gosh, the chalet was nice.
it had 2 bedrooms and toilets in each room,
a kitchen, fridge and a living room with a flat screen tv!
so the rooms were split to guys and girls.
but i was welcomed to the girls room >.< face="arial" color="#ff0000">

what was i thinking of.
haven't i learnt from my mistakes?
yea, im probably that stupid.

drastically, my mood changed.
other than that i had a fun time.

i realised that i was much happier with them.

sure. it was stupid of me
to not think that it would happen.
i just don't know what to do anymore.
like the sand being swept by the gusts of wind
lonely and controlled.

lol, this would have changed
if i could just accept the way things should have been.
keeping such a resolve is foolish
even if were to be that dumb, i should just let go.

yet i just cant seem to tell myself that there are
others who require you and
uncanningly i predict that history will repeat itself.

silence~

prom :D (updated)

2008-11-15T23:44:00.013+08:00

heeeey..

came back from sentosa at about 2?

after taking a freaking 2 hour bus trip from vivo to tamp inter with farid.

well it was a quiet trip back with the companion of music.

last night was a blast!

but i shall not go into the details so just enjoy the pics :D

limo :D
(from left): sher, kok, peng, jerrold and reuben

lol we just moved <<<<

a pic of the bar in the limo. no drinks though :(

our trip from vivo to suntec in the limo was cool.
everyone just stared at us and was shocked to see a limo.

probably seen it for the 1st time.

the music played wasnt really appropriate cause it was rap and stuff

other people were taking pictures as we drove thru orchard road.

man if only we could ride in this for a longer period of time! :(

kang qi~

karen~

mark, kq and daughter~

bryan, xianda and ming hui~(not joel btw) =x

sher~ :D

pris, jane~

again :)

yu ke~ (nuke)

jun jie~
michelle and me :)

warren, jia jun, jin yong, k.k, jun jie, chester, bt, wf, khairul, shazani

wei lin, shelia, rowena, yu ke, warren, 2 jjs, jin yong, wf, bt, mh, khairul, chester and k.k

yuke, jiajun, jinyong, junjie, k.k, wf, bt, mun, khairul, mh, mun, haiQ

damn i close my eyes x.x

sp, an ting :D

sp, at :D again~

eyes open!

again~

khairul and chester :)

dude im taller than u finally! haha

kamal(nitish) ~

xianda, yl!~

yl, alden with his blue peacock hair and xianda

case/khairul

closed my eyes again x.x

darren trying to suck his moobs LOL

last but not least, jasper and joey :)

and i didnt put any lipstick on, its just that my lips were very dry.

sadly, had to leave early to go back to sentosa.
but we still took a cab because we missed the last train to harbourfront.

sorry to those people who i didnt managed to take a picture with.
well, it was certainly a night to remember.

the food was great and the games so so.

my table won digi cams! timo ftw!

he kinda reserved the table for us. so without him we wouldnt have our prizes.

gratz to bryan. prom king leh...

i wouldnt miss prom for the world :)

and to everyone, i hope that we'll get to meet up someday

and yet still remain as close friends.

i'll never forget the stupid things we did in sec 1.

and how we bonded thru games in sec 2.

the times when i would kope stationary from people until they bought me a set of it on my bday in sec 3.

and the horny and perverted jokes. the mindless rumours, the ponning of classes, going out to buy food during dnt, bitching sessions (oops), the times when me zul and nas were the hated gang, the very lame things warren would come up with, the stupid things k.k and wf would come up with, the competing of who gets whacked more between me and mh, the really funny things syazwan would say to make fun of people, the running around and hiding of bryan's things so that we can read his compos, the outings and failed ones to the bubble tea shop and last but not least its how so many different people with different characters and groups can bond 2gt and help one another out during times in need. i'll really miss 4E' 08 and never regret entering the class. :( and i hope that we will continue to stay as friends even after this year.

when i get more pics, i'll update. :)

2008-11-12T22:14:00.005+08:00

heeeeeeeeeyyyyyyyyyyyyy...

haha O levels is over!
well not for the bio students who still have 1 more paper 2mr haha.
jia you guys! 1 more to go while we dnt people are partying~

ytd, the seniors came back.
haha it was so fun to see everyone talking bout the past
and laughing at stupid jokes when the choir went to the hall for a soundcheck.
moses is still so lame! haha
probably managed to turn the avt into antartica for several minutes.
then while they were singing, jing han was playing chess.
lol we almost lost in beginner thanks to the back control which can move back the pieces.

well, seeing the choir again was a great experience.
it was better than mugging. >.< cute ="x">.<
cause i ended up the only guy who purchased something.

2008-08-17T03:02:00.002+08:00

its finally the END of prelims!
ahhh so many things to do in such a short period of time.
the end of an examination means the start of another.

11 more days to dnt submission. jia you everyone!

2day went to eat with kangqi, sara, karen and jun yi at eatzi.
wtf the beef lasagne so small x.x
should have oredered prawn laksa pasta. =/

now im BROKE. though the food there was scrumptious, the serving was very little and relatively expensive.

good luck to the people preparing for common test.

you will never know the experiences that one undergo.
only when you are put into that situation will you see the light.
why must this constantly happen to me.
its as though im a pain in the ass =O
looking forward to the probable bintan trip with bryan and his family.

soon, we all must leave someday in the future.
why not now? since the bonds that bind us are being stretched.
and im most certain that in 2 months, that bond will fail to exist.

2008-08-16T03:01:00.002+08:00

yesterday was the last paper of the prelims.

felt very relieved that one chapter of my sec 4 life is over.
now i just have to overcome another obstacle, the real thing.

2day, we didnt need to stay back for dnt.
gosh i really wanted to stay but i succumbed to my greatest temptation. basketball.
slacked in school and walked home. what a way to end a tiresome day. met dexter, ashley and bernard at the main gate and joked with them.
ahhhhh i got moustache. how? i dunno how shave x.x
and the juniors said my nose is the main topic when they talk bout me wtf? x.x
i know my nose reminds u of rudolph haha.
ahhh i miss the bass sec 1 juniors!

just 12 more days of deprived sleep to achieve the results that i truly desire.

yesterday i lost my closest friend
yesterday i wanted time to end
I wonder if my heart will ever mend
I just let you slip away.

And there's no destiny when everyone's your enemy
Take your jealous heart and cast it into stone
You'll regret it all
Living behind your wall
And you'll never fall in love
If you don't risk it all.

oh yea, congrats to the singapore table tennis team for achieving such a feat at the olympics. though i didnt watch the entire match, feng tian wei made a comeback and it was awesome =D
the excitement and roars of the crowd who cheer as they watch the thrilling returns and attacks from either players.
today will be a day to be remembered.

you have your new circle of friends, i have mine.
so lets just drop the idea of ever having to face each other again.
feeling lost and have no idea where to go.

2008-08-15T02:57:00.002+08:00

bahhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

2day was the mother tongue prelim papers.
and guess what, i forgot to bring a dictionary!
okay not exactly, its because i kinda saw the reminder to bring chinese dict too late, so i asked a few people but i was too tired to wait for their reply, so i fell asleep. any kind of chinese dictionary would have been good. but guess it was fated for me not to have a dictionary.

obviously, as usual, i was late for school. i met zul in bus 28 and reached skool about 7.45. quickly went to the classroom and sat for mother tongue paper 1.

confidently, i smiled as the only thing on the table was a pen. and only a pen.
we were asked whether we wanted to retake the chinese o level paper. after thoughtful consideration, i decided not to retake the paper. but that decision was soon changed. because.... as i was writing the letter part, i wrote one page without the aid of the dictionary! thus, i have come to a conclusion. my cheena not so bad!

anyway, throughout the paper, there were several funeral songs that were played, and i think that might have helped me. during the second paper, i was tired and decided to take a 5 minutes nap. but to my dismay, i overslept and woke up 15 mins later. couldnt really do the paper as i didnt understand some of the qns. =(

after chinese, had to go to the workshop to stay back for 2 hours.

took a cab home and didnt played dota =/.

how i wish i could just erase the deceptions.
the journey ahead seems bleak and full of uncertainties.
but one thing that i am sure is that, no matter how tough it will be,
i know that i will have the support of the ones who have been close to me.
the constant encouragements and genuine concerns given would definitely spur me to achieve and attain the results that i truly desire. to all those that have been supporting me, thanks and to those who are in the same boat as me, good luck and jia you!

2008-08-13T22:22:00.002+08:00

booyah!

ahhhh dnt submission date is just around the corner.
and i still have so much things to do and write =/
so couldn't really blog.

yesterday, was a blessing/curse.
well, we took our e maths paper.
okay ba. some questions dunno how to do
then after that, we were sitting in the hall.
suddenly they said, we are going to release the mother tongue O level results here.
i was like wtf? now? dai.

hafsah went around to tell us our results.
she said, C6 and Ungraded for oral.
i was like stunned. for 3 secs i couldnt make out what she was saying.
i failed my oral but passed chinese. so if i got higher for my orals, i would have gotten btr results. and to top things off, ORAL CANNOT RETAKE! =/
so no matter how well i do in O levels, i still cant get higher.
probably a grade higher?
physics was okay ba.

then stayed back for dnt until like 6?
waited for someone for 1h plus x.x
so people may have thought i am an idiot who didnt take the 28 bus and sat there. x.x
PAHKEHDO! korean word. haha thanks hwee sze =D
really felt very tired, only slept like 3 hours doing dnt lar.
could have caught up on my sleep.
oh well. but it was for a good cause!

its moments like this that shows the true nature of mankind.
the moment when one departs from a place, they literally erase your existence and importance. its like, you are of no value and interest. and the irony of it all, the people who are supposedly the ones that do not the have time to bother bout trivial matters are longing for the opposite party to congregate and experience the nostalgic moments of the past.
just so random rants =D

2008-08-08T00:48:00.002+08:00

1st week of prelim papers.
and i'm starting to feel that i'm a blardy good procrastinator.
i really haven't even touched any of the textbook and my revision times are less than an hour. =x

haha the papers are okay ba if i had studied =/
think can pass but dont think can score.

so dont expect such hight marks from me. =D
been busying playing DMC4
COOL GAME! omg it brings back loads of memories of me playing DMC3.
i LOVE nero's arm! and out of darkness(prologue).
but its like ur typical cool dude who loves the girl very much to the extent where he wants more power and would do anything to protect the girl, kyrie.
nero, although not as superior as dante, battles demons on his quest to protect kyrie and stop his holiness(bad dude, an old man) from using the saviour against the earth. you should buy the PC version for those of u who do not possess a PS3.

oh yea, 2day i came late to skool, one hand carrying my dnt journal while the other carrying koks bball.
woah kao. tio kp for bringing ball to skool and accused of playing during the prelims. wtf so next time, you bring psp to skool means u play in skool lar? lame.

finally, completed my artefact! ahhhh kinda cool though. gonna post the pics 2mr.

after dnt, watched money no enough 2 with kok darren jasper and wang han. omg wang han is an idiot siol =o.
rained heavily and had to take 27 from mrt to library which is like 1 stop. =/

escape the fate <3 haha.
-as silence takes its toll

2008-08-02T01:02:00.002+08:00

bahx. next week prelims. havent even bring back my stuff from under my table!
ahhhh. my artefact, gonna finish. just that now got alot of unforeseen problems.
my major part, my velcro cant be joined to my armor =/
i go lacquer and it kinda dropped. now got dent. heng i talk cock say it fell rofl.
hmmmm what else, oh yea STD ROD! haha

usually, when i think of basketball, i would think of the wonderful and nostalgic memories of the times when choir people would hang out and play the sport we all love. now, its with another group of people. just shows how things really change in just a short span of 2 years.

escape the fate is nice =D for those people who love metal songs. o.o omg i just realised that i listen to that genre =/

thanks to everyone, who has helped me through these years. =)
and very sorry to zul for ps-ing u 2day. really sorry.

2008-07-27T22:24:00.000+08:00

happy belated 15th birthday shaun ._.

anyway, speech day was very boring.
speech after speech after speech.
the only nicest part was the choir's performance.
kinda miss singing. >.<

after that went to play bball with 4B and ming.
so fun, cept the pfffffft part. damn embarrassing can.
damn big somemore, this time, the pants cant be sewn back. =/
so then me and bryan rushed to his house and bathed and went tuition.
to find out that we had to complete our amaths homework. sadly misinterpreted mr foos words. haha but hes a nice teacher.

played dota and sucked. si bei off form sia.

27th july

woke up at 11. OMG THIS IS THE 1st time i woke up b4 noon on a sunday x.x

met up with mun and ate
then met up with zul and went library.
then met someone unexpected and decided to play bball.
ahhhhh memories flushed through my mind as i reminsced the past.
sucked too, =/

oh yea thanks to a certain someone for listening to me ^^
despite being so late at night

Its like I've waited my whole life for
This one night it's gonna be me you and
The dance floor cause
We've only got one life

2008-07-24T23:06:00.000+08:00

ahhh busy week ._.
i got loads of overdue homework and not completed journal pages. x.x
and im expected to hand up everything concerning dnt by tomorrow LOL.
dai le lar. i dont think my artefact will be completed by tomorrow cause i need more VELCRO!

also, im making slow progress on completing my display banner x.x
still got alot of things to do in such a short period of time.
at least now i see my class in a state of chaos and mayhem as we all rush to complete our own artefacts at record speed. and the start of a short negligence to other subjects. for example maths and english.

oh well, i'm flunking my prelims for my procrastination habit. im screwed. no more iphone le x.x

onwards! towards an emo-free lifestyle.
despise people who have ugly frowns :( ROFL!

2008-07-24T00:21:00.000+08:00

reached school just on time again. >.<
cause i slept at 1.30 doing journal.

anyway im hyped up to do my journal now. it's kinda scary to know that in 2 weeks time the prelims begin and i have not prepared anything. that is scary.

so im looking forward to the amount of sleep that i have to deprive myself of so as to complete my dnt and score decent results >.<

good luck to everyone performing in the speech day and to all the sec 4s who are gonna take their prelims exams in 2 weeks. jia you!

-somebody get me through this nightmare.

2008-07-22T21:29:00.000+08:00

it's been a hectic week,
dnt, homework, night study, eat, sleep, dota.

ahhhhhh 4 more days to passing up of everything concerning dnt and i haven't done most of it. i r screwed. =.=
anyway, really enjoyed sleeping at home sia. x.x

zomg, its really true!!!
well congrats, georgina for becoming president of choir, and the 2 vps, wei chong and eugene.

2008-07-13T01:55:00.000+08:00

woke up at 8.50 to meet haiqal at mac.
ate hotcakes. gosh its been a long time since i ate it.
we reached skool bout 9.45 and took my artefact out.
went to workshop one to vacuum form my thingy. sadly need to do again.

then went to bend my rod which looks like a dick.
seriously, its like 50cm and the top part of the rod is rounded so it looks like you know what. haha
put it in the oven for like god knows how long before it was ready to bend.
being the 1st time bending using a jig, i pressed the acrylic rod against the pole.
there were several dents and bubbles. one prominent part which bubbled was the tip of the rounded part x.x
bubbling is when an acrylic is placed in the oven for too long. x.x and its looks like bubbles are formed on the rod itself.
so its the kinda the 1st time that i encountered. i showed it to mr lee and said. cher kena std arh. he laughed his ass off lol. cause the rod looked like it had sores on it.
after showing it to him, i went back to workshop 2.
lol rowena 4g de and wei lin were talking bout their primary skool food and what happened to them and stuff. so i was translating what they had said in chinese to haiqal and is. hahah roflmao.
so i was like sanding the dick part and laughing my ass off cause they were talking bout dirty issues. haha and it was very fun.
that was the 1st time i felt that my class and 4g were talking. oh yea the techno dance was damn funny.

kinda felt like got fever so went home and took a very long nap. x.x

oh yea HAPPY BDAY REUBEN!
sorry i couldnt come to ur bday cele thingy.

starting from tomorrow, its gonna get more tougher as the days pass.
and the clock is ticking, as the prelims and o levels examinations draws near.
there are so many things that i still want to do. but i think i have to put them aside for the time being for the > good. now, i don't see the point of adding one more contact to my msn list. whats the use? i'm supposedly "busy" to you. really, its very hurtful to know that u can create such a great disturbance between two grps of people. i don't know. maybe it was a mistake to go against my resolve. i really dont know what to do anymore. i didnt know that o levels is such a big matter and can change ur life even bfore u take it. well, if you're not gonna do anything about it, then i wont bother to. blame me for saying such stuff. you're not any better.

2008-07-12T01:08:00.000+08:00

yes! i will be able to complete my artefact by next week!
i feel so good that i have progressed past the difficult part.
now comes the assembling and shit.
sian bodoh, night lessons start le.
i know the teachers are suffering with us too.

today, i ran up and down from sectionals to dnt. >.<
mr lee dont let us go back to see our cca so i need to sneak.
but i completed quite a fair bit in like 3 hours.
i'll have to chiong tomorrow since he wont have that much students to attend to.

after dnt,met up with the juniors to eat dinner.
felt very tired and hungry cause there were like 4 ppl surrounding me eating ban mian. while i was the only one stoning. after that went to buy bubble tea and went home.

wanted to go out with wc to buy earpiece or stationary but didnt.
because i couldnt bear to see someone get stolen because of me LOL. kidding.
so yea, kinda made a big mistake to not go for night study. but oh well.
i dont think i will buy the 49 dollar earpiece >.< haha
but takecare hor wc. going to have performance still sick.

i really got nothing to say. i think if i wasnt there, it would have been a more enjoyable dinner for u all. well, the sudden segregation between genders after i shortly arrive is very obvious. im not blaming anyone. its just that i feel that i have committed so grave mistakes which i regret. if this continues on, i'd rather not spoil your dinner with my presence. i know that it is unthinkable for us to even talk let alone being in the same area for more than 1 minute. hai what to do x.x

this is definitely not an emo statement. i'm just expressing my view =.=
life is a sad process that all of us have to go through. it's filled with friendships and joy yet its also filled with pain, hatred and sadness. sometimes, you encounter people with golden hearts who will stick by you through thick and thin and the seasons of the year. yet there are some people who are eager to break you apart the moment u let them in your life. yet, with such problems, there are some who seem to see the postive side of life, something that most able-bodied human beings will never come across. these are the people who despite many trials and tribulations will always stand up against any impending obstacles or problems that they may face. yet the saddest part about life is its fragility. in a split second, a person can just fall to the ground and pass away. and no one can stop death. so, instead of emoing our asses and rambling on and on about stupid problems, we should enjoy life to the fullest and appreciate the little things that anyone has done for us out of concern. making even the smallest of problems seem like a beautiful picturesque of the boundless ocean the even your eyes cannot see the end to. a mountain of possibilites and opportunities. that way, nothing can bring down ur spirit and you'd feel as if life is a joyful ride.

2008-07-07T22:53:00.000+08:00

i shall stop being an a**hole.
and start caring about others more
before its too late.
im sorry to all those people who i have neglected.
after watching wanted,
i felt very very down.
i didn't know why.
probably its because of the trouble i have to go thru just to watch a movie with my friends or not being asked. well anyway, WANTED IS SHO COOLZXC!
they can literally curve the movement of a bullet and do uber cool stunts with cars.
and the movie had loads of f words! ahaha NC16 FTW.
went to watch with kq, karen, tracy and cd.
met iffah and fiona at gv. after movie me and cd went to eat pepper lunch.

ahhhhh youth day well spent ^^

well, u are happy with who you are. so i should too.
i kinda miss the times when we would play bball everyday.
and not give a care bout homework nor going home early.
life was like a dream. a really sweet one with all ur friends in it.
as a chapter ends, a new chapter of our lives begins.
with new friends, new experiences and probably new love.
but my greatest wish is to relive one day of what i used to have. just one day.
the katong laksas, queenstown shoppings, seoul garden celebrations, the daily bball, the usual late night confs and the weekend movies. but all of that has disappeared. that is how much life can change in just 2 years.

2008-06-30T01:06:00.001+08:00

i am so not suppose to be here x.x
but since this is something btr doing than dnt haha.

i fear that my results are not gonna be like how i want it to be.
i'm still stuck doing my artefact and i'm not even half way to completing it.
also my journal is so empty and the daily night study programme is gonna start.
i didnt realise how quickly this year is gonna past.
i can still rmb the first time i step into 4E.
and now its just 2-3 months to o lvls. and i haven't started revising!
somebody save me from the computer.

i have to stop procrastinating and start doing what i ought to do for a btr future.
i was supposed to start work at 5 ytd and i ended up watching LOTR:the two towers instead. i did like 2 hours of dnt and only managed to complete 1 part of a CHUNK. gosh thats bad.
and now i have to complete the remainder of it and finish a compre and a geog essay qn. >.<

2008-06-24T22:11:00.000+08:00

wow, it's been a long time since i last blogged.
haha nth much has happened to lil short me ^^.

the "holidays" was a tough and challenging obstacle to overcome.
now back to skool with a new stupid hairstyle T.T
haha everyday have to stay back till 6. but wow time sure flies.
in a split second, its already six and can go home x.x
well after much bending and putting my acrylic in the oven.
i'm starting to get frustrated with my artefact. i've wasted bout 3 days because of that dumb black thingy. =/

as i was walking back from dnt, i saw the choir having sectionals in the old canteen.
ROFL AHAHAHX sad guys. i'd rather be doing dnt than to sing in such a hot place x.x

as we walk our separate ways, we forget about the memories we've shared.
but will we turn back and take a step back?
i understand that you have a life of your own.
but it has been reduced to just hi-s and bye-s.
hah, the indifference and assumption cycle continues.

2008-06-14T02:14:00.000+08:00

ahhhhhh.

the holidays is almost over.
with just one week of intensive dnt left.

zomg i plan P!
well, my class de dnt ppl were mostly tired from the week of staying in skool till late.
so we hatched a plan p for plan pon to pon night study rofl.
haha, think we will die. i pon twice liao sure kena call up.

anyway, started playing rohan online.
its like wow and stuff.
sh0 fun. i'mma dekan! a dragon fighter with 1.4k health at lvl 18 how cool is that!
and my atk spd is imba.

ha! dekan FTW!

ahhh life is so easy and carefree without ur presence.
and and and. i dont miss choir. i dont even want to return back there.
i dont really wanna see the juniors. okay just probably one who i want to forget bout
so anyway yea. i dont really care bout my juniors anymore for certain reasons. haha

lets continue this dao-ing. and nvr speak a word in front of each other.
act as though you are invisible or as insignificant as a speck of dust in the air.
1 thing i've learnt is that nvr do so much for a person no matter who they may be.

there are so many things i want to say, but lets just keep it to myself for the time being cause i dont have enough time to waste on complaining bout such a group of indifferent and heck care people. those fond memories will be etched in my memory forever. but i know that none of them will ever happen again. time can really change the a person completely. but oh well, why bother caring bout people who have changed from bad to worse. =)

2008-06-02T23:14:00.000+08:00

back from choir camp.

the only thing i missed was staying in school.
and nothing else.

the only part of choir camp i enjoyed the most was talentime and us performing.

okay lets start from the top.

friday had lessons and continued on with dnt.
after dnt went home with bryan to bathe and change
then left for night lessons.
so after stoning for 3 hours we went to the dance studio to put our bags.
and walked around.
people treated us as if we were invisible.
so we went back to the dance studio to have our own fun.
bryan told us a chinese ghost story which seemed more hilarious than scary.
then we talked bout scary happenings.

played dj max and owned kq's lil ass =x
then did a maths till around 4 plus 5.
so i was pretty much very tired when dawn came.

nic rome davin and zi jing brought their lappys.
and played dota/td/pudge wars while zi jing played aom.

saturday.

as usual, the choir had their morning physical training.
lol i brought down my psp for pt wtf.
then we were told that we had to eat their breakfast. okay nvm
after breakfast the sec4s entertained the choir ppl while the comm were preparing for their rotational games.

when they were done, we went to the fire engine are station.
lol me and bryan were made to throw basketballs at the grp members for?
oh wait WE DONT KNOW WHY! ahhh just so angry.
then upon realising it was quite dumb, we went to eugene's station.
where the people have to throw limes into the bucket.
hmmm doesnt seem to require any teamwork there.
so anyway, saw grp 4. ahhh dexter! sad i nvr notice him.
ahhhh the grp cheers so funny rawrrawrrawr!
after the rotationals, me and bryan went to tuition and rented dvds.
oceans 13, simpsons and confessions of a teenage drama queen. 13 dollars sia.

after tuition we went back. the choir were doing their orienteering in skool.
so anyway we walked around and guess what
WE WERE PLAYING SA SIOL.
so invisible to the extent where no one greeted us or acknowledged our presence.

so yea. anyway special mention to estee for thanking us alumnis, me and bryan
-.-
haha
so we practised when you believed. i sang sop again. =/
AHHH TALENTIME WAS ROFL.

the grps performances are so funny. i laughed throughout every perfomance.
after talentime, iffah jer yuan warren winnie zi jing ding sheng and me
went to the new bball court and took some pics.
ahhh gosh i so miss prague. so fun and memorable.
then talked and talked with iffah and jy till 3 at the corridor.
miss the good ol' days lar. sadly such a day can only come once in a year or lifetime.
gonna miss you guys.
so basically that was what happened during my stay in school for 2 nights.

2008-05-29T21:45:00.000+08:00

x.x

hello,
lolololol

haha pawned bryan in lvl position!
ahah and so cool lar, my class 4,5,6,7 position.
4th in class is 69,
5th in class is 70,
6th in class is 71,(me ^^)
7th in class is 72 lol.
argh hate dnt lar.
my product gets more screwed,
cause its too simple but simply too hard to do.
=/ dai.

anyway, i also hate dnt cause whenever i walk to tech room.
i see certain people who i dont wanna see =D
LOLOL i know i'm a bastard but who cares anyway.
i'm so gonna anti 1 grp in choir LOL HAHAHA.
bad past.. =/

okay, so 2mr is gonna be so packed.
the following day too. gotta chiong homework overnight =/
yea choir camp yet i doing homework, so hardworking eh? ^^

SUNDAY SHOPPING LOL. i think z3n pissed with me cause everytime i see him i say sunday shopping arh. =/ sorry dude just excited haha

sad. holidays just killing me. A MATHS KILLING ME.
ahhh dai.
i so not looking forward to choir camp.

you've shown me eventually what you'll do.

2008-05-15T22:24:00.001+08:00

SHOCKING NEWS!
I PASSED CHEENA/CHINESE WOOT.
but sadly my languages both suck x.x both c5 sia.

ahhhh what a week.
exams exams exams.
dota dota dota.
stone stone stone.
friends friends friends.
eat sleep eat sleep eat sleep.

yea thats my life now.
no more late night talks.
uhhh staying up late to do homework and study.

but ahhhh its gonna change.
x.x

anyway, 2day was so dead.

got cheena intensive. woah can die bodoh
then the bozos behind making so much noise.
so stuffy and damn sian.
its like making a boring teacher talk for like 6 hours.
and u have to be stuck in class. woah that sucks.
then went to republic poly after skool.
see cheng dey, z3n, bry, mh and joel/fook soon play in comp.
lol x.x my eyes got screwed real bad.
anyway they lost.
sad.
but it was fun i guess.
on the way back after we got on the bus
z3n forgot that he didnt took his ez link.
so i followed him off the bus to go back and collect.
then walking there, he realised he had took it.
so we took the train back. OMG ITS LIKE 25-27 STOPS LAR
x.x talked bout dota all the way back to tampines.

haha overall it was fun.
dota matches are like medication x.x
helps me forget bout life's problems.
ahhh who cares bout life and love when u have dota eh? ^^

2008-05-09T01:57:00.001+08:00

muse- "Falling Away With You"

I can't remember when it was good
moments of happiness elude
maybe I just misunderstood

all of the love we left behind
watching the flash backs intertwine
memories I will never find

so I'll love whatever you become
and forget the reckless things we've done
I think our lives have just begun
I think our lives have just begun

and I'll feel my world crumbling
I'll feel my life crumbling
I'll feel my soul crumbling away
and falling away
falling away with you

staying awake to chase a dream
tasting the air you're breathing in
I know I won't forget a thing

promise to hold you close and pray
watching the fantasies decay
nothing will ever stay the same

all of the love we threw away
all of the hopes we cherished fade
making the same mistakes again
making the same mistakes again

I can feel my world crumbling
I can feel my life crumbling
I can feel my soul crumbling away
and falling away
falling away with you

all of the love we've left behind
watching the flash backs intertwine
memories I will never find
memories I will never find

hahaha. just can't seem to understand why people don't like muse.
maybe they just don't like noisy music.
and their lyrics are superb.
some of the words are chim. lol not like most of the song lyrics with simple english.

maybe i just dig band songs with drums and guitar solos with meaningful lyrics.

anyway, screwed up 2days paper. gosh
a math, dai. i found section 1 harder than section 2.
while most people found it the other way x.x

i gave up trying to study last minute for physics during the break.
just looked through at an tings formulae paper.
woot thanks or else i dai. >.<

just a few more papers.
and ms kang told us that our results for paper 2 was horrendous.
dai. my summary sure very bad. ms ong marked it! >.<

mye die. preparing for o levels le.
i just cant seem to make myself think that this is important.
and study beforehand.

hope paper 1 is nice. i will chiong the paper so i can check and make sure i get the optimum marks to salvage my paper 2 or else i dai. walaoeh no have formulae for sphere wtf.

2008-04-30T23:40:00.000+08:00

muse- "Time Is Running Out"

I think I'm drowning
Asphyxiated
I wanna break this spell
That you've created

You're something beautiful
A contradiction
I wanna play the game
I want the friction

You will be the death of me
You will be the death of me

Bury it
I won't let you bury it
I won't let you smother it
I won't let you murder it

Our time is running out
Our time is running out
You can't push it underground
You can't stop it screaming out

I wanted freedom
Bound and restricted
I tried to give you up
But I'm addicted

Now that you know I'm trapped sense of elation
You'd never dream of
Breaking this fixation

You will squeeze the life out of me

Bury it
I won't let you bury it
I won't let you smother it
I won't let you murder it

Our time is running out
Our time is running out
You can't push it underground
You can't stop it screaming out
How did it come to this?
Oh

You will suck the life out of me

Bury it
I won't let you bury it
I won't let you smother it
I won't let you murder it

Our time is running out
Our time is running out
You can't push it underground
You can't stop it screaming out
How did it come to this?
Oh

ahhh i just love muse =D.
anyway, i can't seem to curb my dota addiction. =/
and ms kang called me kaypo when i asked jj for the answer.
haiz. let go luh. much better than caring.

2mr gonna chiong study ^^.
go airport then prime. what a big diff.
haiz. no more choir! cept the 22nd may thingy.

ahhhh. finally free.
the taste of freedom, so sweet.

2008-04-28T22:16:00.000+08:00

mye in 4 more days. this is my first day studying. =o

well, i am addicted to muse. HAARP.
omg their concert in wembley stadium rocks.
matt bellamy sure can play the guitar.
i wanna buy the dvd soon after paying off my debts to qf. woah 63 dollars.

anyway, it just struck me that i suck in chem.
and i have to really work hard from now on.

well, no wonder you're in such a predicament.
your ignorance towards other people's genuine concern is disgusting.
no wonder you don't have so many friends.
well for a start you can think of how good they are to you and how bad you treat them.

ahhhh. my class people are so funny.
it seems that there is no dull moment when the word sex or anything that has to do with girls appear.
but sadly, its gonna last for about another 4-5 more months. why didn't we get to know each other like this.

sadly, its never about me. its always about other people. it never occurred to you that I'm trying my best to cheer you up. but no, you won't share anything with me to allow me to help. hah. isn't it ironic? and you complain that no one is there for you. fuck man, being too concerned is bad. to the extent where i don't even think of my well-being. oh yea, don't think i don't know what you asked him that day. please if you didn't ask him that question i wouldn't even be angry. pang sehers are lurbs. it never ceases to amaze how choir people are "genuinely" concerned for their peers. c'mon it's his birthday. me and qf bought a bigger cake just because so many people went. wtf waste our money somemore. assholes. and you're not even paying for it. so ironic. gahhh, fuck man if you are not caring then i won't too.

2008-04-27T01:56:00.000+08:00

happy birthday wc!
finally 15th eh? haha.
tall dude liao.
taller than me alr arh.
oh wait you've always been taller than me haha =x

anyway. woke up at 8.30 to go airport mac to do dnt.
haha we went T3-T1-T2 LOLOL just to go to the mac. wtf
stupid zul. then went back home and met qf.
after that got table and played pool luh.
ahah i owned qf's ass =/
wc owned mine. =/
in like a time frame of 9 hours, 5 people backed out.
the thing was so messy lar. wth
in the end only 11 people went to eat.
thats their loss. then we gave wc his gift, a ds game.
qf was so nice to lend him 2 other FF games. haha

then went to eatzi. woah nice place man.
the 1st page of the menu G_G.
30-40 plus dishes. we were like die lar.
then subsequently the prices got cheaper. heng arh
if not 10 people will lunge at me and stab me with the knives T_T.
the food was great! haha. we had a blast.
reminiscing the past and making fun of moses xP
then the cake arrived!
woah so cool they got birthday song in their music player. i was impressed.
anyway though we were from choir, we were off beat LOL.
the whole place was looking at us with smiles.
OREO CHEESECAKE!
then after that paid the bills. woah headache sia.
heng we got enuf. now i only left 4 dollars for the week. how cool is that.
it was fun lar. his presents all ex one lar =/
haha and kok and sher bought him a formal shirt
which they used me as a model LOLOL must be an insult to you ahah.

sorry, is the person really me? if it is please enlighten me. because i really don't know. sorry i treat you very harshly, today was a bad day. so many stupid stuff happened all at once. argh, i'm really sorry okay? stay happy.

2008-04-25T00:32:00.001+08:00

Bullies
What is your first impression when you hear the word “bullies”? Well, most of you must be thinking of several elephantine figures who tower menacingly above the puny, low self-esteemed adolescence and radiate fear, turmoil and suffering to the public.

What is defined as bullies? Bullies are a group of individuals who feel that they are in a league out of the general population and would cause great suffering to their victims just to prove that perceived fact. They often harbour bitter feelings against a group of students or just one victim and would find every possible way to make his or her life as miserable as they can. Cruelly toying with their victims, these bullies seem to get a great deal of satisfaction and joy from the immense physical and mental suffering being inflicted to their victims. To these heartless beasts, their victims are often a seen as a source of irritation and a an opportunity to display their most creative punishments.

Although they seem to be high and mighty, these bullies are not completely perfect. They, too have a weakness. Bullies portray themselves as strong and intimidating foes ,often putting up a united front. But this illusion is just a façade, a cover for their weakness, fear and inferiority.

It seems that there is an abundance in the number of bullies in every community. They are like weeds, which require a tedious and taxing amount of effort to eradicate but they always seem to return after some time. Though there are bullies in different parts of the world, they all share a common trait, superiority complex. Superiority complex, is a subconscious desire developed by the individual as a result of feelings of inferiority. These feelings of inferiority are often brought about by real or perceived social rejection. When one possesses the superiority complex, they perceive themselves as a class higher than their victims and have an exaggeratedly positive opinion of their worth. These bullies require attention, power and a chance to permeate fear to their victims so that they can experience being of greater value compared to their victims and feel superior for the first time in their pitiful life. Also, individuals with such a mentality often come stick in groups. This is to ensure that the victims have no chance whatsoever to stand up against them.

But what do their victims experience? Sheer suffering and turmoil. The victims have to undergo cruel treatment and face the wrath of bullies. These painful experiences are etched in their memories forever and may even lead to a change in their character. Some may never get up from the unforgettable experiences and feel great about themselves due to the relentless name-calling and insulting verbal criticism being hurled at them by bullies. Sadly, these victims have to endure such unimaginable torment and will be scarred for life all because of the great deal of satisfaction the bullies acquire which is short-lived.

Most of the these heinous acts are done by teenagers in their schools. The bullies single out a victim from the mass crowd who has does things they deem weird. These victims are often the bookworms and tiny sized teenagers who almost look like toddlers and have little or no knowledge of how to protect themselves and stand up towards them. Thus, the bullies get a feeling of invincibility and eternal reign over the weak victims who are unable to fend for themselves.

Also, there seems to be an increasing trend of teenagers capturing their acts of violence and cruelty on their victims on recordable devices which are readily available in the market and uploading them onto the internet. These bullies simply just want fame, acknowledgement of their superiority from the world and justification of their savage acts. After a while, that happiness disappears like the wind and their thirst for dealing immense pain returns.

But, the most important thing is, what can schools do to prevent such acts of monstrosity from occurring? Teachers can have a one to one talk with the bullies to try to change their perception and guide them back on the right path when they have knowledge that such incidents happen.
But most of the time the victims are too afraid to tell their teachers and save themselves from the cruel reign of these bullies as they fear the enraged monsters would vent their increased anger and increase the intensity of their acts of violence. Sadly, though the school is heavily guarded and watched by the teacher’s eagle eyes, some actions often slip through their watchful eye. Also, though the school has immense control over the students, they have no power outside the school premises. Thus, many a times, the acts of bullying done by bullies on their victims are left uncaught and the bullies escape scot-free, leaving the pitiful victims with unforgettable and painful memories of their schooldays.

2008-04-24T01:48:00.000+08:00

skool has been so stressful.
loads of homework to be completed.
dnt to research on.
and birthday to plan.

and not forgetting that i'm gonna be short of money to put it all in place.
its just so fucked up when you have to question people over and over again and yet they're answers are all the same. i don't know leh, mye around the corner, maybe parents don't let. c'mon how many freaking times have i asked you to ask your parents about it. but no, you just don't seem to want to ask them.

sometimes, it just really pisses me off when you continue to whine about how sucky your life is and how bad your studies are. well apparently, your attitude and mentality reflects your results. thats just a fact and secondly, i have my o levels this year. it only comes once in a lifetime. unlike you, you can repeat your sec 3 life over and over again until you're fully prepared for it. so don't come and talk to me about you failing 6 subs. by putting in the correct effort, your results can improve. but my o levels will never come again. so now i don't have to study and somehow the straight As will appear. is that it? just spare a thought about how other people are suffering and trying to not make the pain so unbearable while you just accepting that your life sucks :)

well, i am tired, of having to wait up for you just because you made a verbal agreement to call back. and what happens in the end? no call. i, too have very important things to do like for example sleeping. yes i really lack of it and focusing on my dnt. so please spare a thought for other people.

oh yes, and not forgetting. please process every thought before saying it out loud. you almost killed me by saying too much to people who shouldn't know. well, you often say things without thinking which results in suffering and resentment to the people around you.

yes, i may have made mistakes. like for example persistently calling you every night without fail to vent my anger and frustrations and wanting to get something off my chest. yes, i am to be blamed for being so unreasonable.

i just want you to be a better person and a better friend. i am not typing this to flame you or bad mouth about you. i just want you to see the light on somethings that you are unable to picture. sometimes you have to think of what the other party is experiencing and try to understand what he or she is going through. i'm sorry if it makes you unhappy but this is the truth.

2008-04-19T23:21:00.000+08:00

next week mye.

gahh, haven't even started revising.
don't even intend to.

i don't know whats happening to me.
i'm becoming an asshole seriously.
why is that so? i don't know.

but i just know one thing,
that things will never be the same.
after next week, i'm going to isolate myself in a corner.
me being alone would be a wise choice.

happy birthday mx!

2008-04-14T23:53:00.000+08:00

nothing much happened.
don't know what else to say.
i think it's time.
to let go and move on.
to never look back,
and move straight on.
you may not give a shit,
but i do.
and that is the saddest part.
hah, people may say being concerned is good.
but when that mere interest goes way beyond being concerned.
adverse impacts are formed.

2008-04-10T23:56:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BI!!!!
brother from another mother!
gonna watch NC16 movie with him 2mr!

gosh 2day started badly,
woke up late cause slept late.
took a cab to skool.
thot i was on time so walked in.
suay suay kena late.

well, judaxil and adin booked me.
and met darren
so went to atrium together.
mr wong was pissed. wtf
then vent anger on ppl. gosh

started off with ms poh lesson.
gave us a 15 min pep talk.
i really have to start doing her homework and handing it up to her =/
then had SS. lol also have to start doing homework.
english oso. woah i damn slack sia.
during recess, met wc and he handed me a card.
thanks for the card :) don't worry i will always be there for you too.

copied physics and did a maths.
e maths sure fail le lar.

after skool straight away got chem rem. wtf
had around 55 mins of chem. after chem had to wait for sian pei and wu huan.
thanks for the slippers and excessive sweets :) i sure tio diabetes haha.
after that went home to charge hp.
woah i continuously sent smses for 16 mins.
thank you for the smses guys. though i never received it in the morn ;P

went home and changed then left home.
met han wen at the interchange and proceeded to white sands.

lol. ate at swensens. too bad some people cant join us. the food was good!
the people who came: quan feng, bryan, iris, iffah, zerlina, estee, jerrold, kok, sher, eugene, han wen, jing han and tuan bee.
quan feng ate 4meals that ghey.

AHHHHHH THE BLACK BOOK!!!!!
I LAUGHED MY ASS OFF!
so hilarious! brought back many memories.
both happy and sad.
thank you all who wrote in the book. i'll never forget you guys.
ahhhhh. will miss you guys!

then after eating headed to a void deck to cut cake.
gosh. kena whack by cake. specs kena. walao
then did a backflip which made me injure my right foot.

overall, it was a great day!
thanks for the slipper and sweets, spsp anting wuhuan jj wei lin shelia rowena elena
card: judaxil
PENCILBOX/PSP HOLDER ROFL: MAPHAX!
cake: iffah
dinner: estee
chinese book, everyone.
BLACK BOOK! everyone! esp wc and YAH! LOL
TISSUE PAPER! everyone.

ahhhh it wouldnt be memorable without you guys
also i want to apologize to a certain someone.
if i made u feel awkard in any way i'm sorry.
thanks for the card :)

2008-04-07T23:33:00.001+08:00

tomorrow, the finale.
of a long, arduous journey of self-discovery
and the forging of many friendships and hatred.

its been 4 years since,
and now we're leaving.
though its been a very long time.
i still remember the first time i stepped into the avt.

the only person i knew was kok leong,
who was in the same class as me.
everyone else was a stranger who i have no clue about.

then slowly, after a year.
i began to get to know more and more people.

then, a new batch of sec ones came in,
i became a senior.
just thinking of that year brought back tons and tons of memories.
the "in" thing was basketball.
we would play till the late evening.
every weekend and holidays.
also, we watched the first ever teachers concert.
that was a blast.

sec 3, SYF year.
we worked hard and persevered on.
and managed to attain a gold with honours.
a first in dunman choir history.
it was a milestone.
following on that year,
we went to slokavia and cesky krumlov.
the worst trip, but i had alot of fun.
and so many things happened that were dear to me.

now, sec 4 and going on to jc.
in a blink of an eye. its 8th april.
the day the sec 4s step down.
the final concert, final performance.
the end of many great experiences.

though it would be the last time,
i have to see him. it saddens me that
my life would never be the same without it.
no more, hey lets go play pool.
or eh want go eat dinner?
so on and so forth.
instead it would be, eh going dnt?
or i got remedials and mock exams.

tomorrow would be the last time,
we'll go out together as a gang.
because after tomorrow.
it would be difficult to hang on to those bonds.
or more likely, ignorant.

the future looks bleak.
the end is inevitable.
we just have to learn to forget and move on.
just like how u have forgotten me.

but, no matter what.
even if you don't see this,
i just want you to know.
that i'll always be there
for you no matter what.
any assistance that you may acquire.
i will render my fullest effort to help you
no matter the circumstances.

but the sad fact is that,
you'd never ask.

2008-03-12T22:46:00.000+08:00

happy 16th birthday kok and kq!
don't anyhow do things hor! lol especially kok ahah.

having choir and dnt like everyday for the whole week.
friday gonna wear coat! woot!
haha homeworks killing me.
or gonna kill me coz i haven even touched it yet.
well, haven been blogging coz too lazy to do it.

2008-02-15T14:54:00.000+08:00

arh...
it's been a busy and long week.
most of the things which i thought would be in ruins turned out well.
and most things which i thought would be all right turned out horribly.

happy v.day to everyone :)

gonna be sleeping with the fishies and sharks
then have adam khoo from sunday to tuesday.
and piles of homework to boot.
i'm screwed.

2008-02-06T00:14:00.000+08:00

6th jan.
woke up at 11.55am
rushed out. coz need meet jj, warren, zhian, wh and bt at mrt at 12.
reached at 12.15 heng arh.

walked around tamp and cs to find jj cny clothes.
only spend 30mins lar. =.=
then went mac to wait for bryan tay.
saw ppl who i didnt expect to see.
so ran off to meet moses they all.
reach small mac. no one there wtf.
stupid public phone. ate 20cents of my money.

then me and moses bought the mist tix.
waited for everyone to come then go in
wtf i was denied entry. even wc can go in lar >.<
so i watched 27 dressses with him coz he felt guilty.
very nice movie. even though missed quite a fair bit of it.
damn touching lar. if wc wasnt there. i would have cried. lol

went to eat sakae after that with jj they all.
bt so shy. i ate so much!

went home and bathed
then went pool.
spent around 20 mins there
then went to walk walk at tm with bryan.
tried to find ppl lol.

in the end.
we ate at kfc.
just watching them eat made me wanna puke.

went to rent onimusha.
then went to bryans house to watch.
lol sucky sia.
the battles all kena cut. wtf.
then the graphics. oh god.
sucky as hell.
so switched to avp2.
woa sian. so dark.
watch halfway need go home.
walked home with wc.

thx dude. you made my day.
thx for watching 27 dresses with me.
thx for lending me ur phone, though for a short while.
and thx for hearing me out. =D

2008-01-29T22:24:00.000+08:00

29th jan.
happy 15th birthday judaxil!
cont to stay happy.

>.< got 8/25 for vocab quiz.
had to write sentences for every wrong answer.
2mr need pass up.
and screwed. my dnt
i barely even touched it during the weekend.
got 20/20 for e maths test.
too easy ba. =x

had choir after school.
study session was more of talking to bryan.
did some dnt.
had choir after that.
sang for the birthday ppl bday song
after choir, kinda felt void of emotions.
dunno why.
went to eat.
ate teriyaki chicken ramen.
talked and went home at around 9.15.

tomorrow got chinese test. >.<
sure fail de.

2008-01-27T21:58:00.000+08:00

26th jan
woke up at around 11 and played hellgate.
met up wif lincoln and gang at 12.30
went to raiders lan shop.
omg i got pawned. played cs and dday judgement.
tried to play fifa but couldn't cause laggy.
went to met aloy at the bus stop
and proceeded to wei longs house.
then met up with quan feng at the interchange
and left for dianas house.

woa her condo damn nice lar.
shermaine was already there when we reached.
bryan and lincoln went to swim while i ate the otahs ^^.
then bbqued. lol i fan-ed the fire. haha those noobs.
feeling tired, i went to talk to shermaine.
had loads of fun. lol
diana's bro suddenly treated me like his older bro.
he started talking to me.
then he told me bout his dunno how many friends.
and asked whether i had any best friends.
it seemed as though he treated everyone as his friend.
i kinda miss that part of my life. where everyone,
no matter how sucky was your friend.

when erika and gang came,
we cut the cake. omg the cake tasted weird.
then went to the playground and played cherades.
the sky was clear so i could see the stars.
it was so nice. looking at the vast sky,
admiring the shiny and glittering small dots
without having to think about your problems.

went home after that.

27th jan.
HAPPY BDAY LINCUNT AND DIANA!
may your bday wishes come true.

woke up at 10.
played hellgate the whole day.
guess next week will be a nightmare.
have to stay back to do dnt >.<

2008-01-26T00:42:00.000+08:00

25th jan.
had SS 1st period. learnt bout the diff terrorist grps.
then had a maths! learnt quotient rule.
gosh. sitting beside wh is HELL
kns whack me like no ones business.
then whack me cause she didnt want me to do a maths 12.2
whack me till got stomach ache. kaoz.

after recess had dnt. mr lee promised us 10 dollars for A1 and 5 for A2. LOL
then, went to the canteen and met estee and kq.
chionged 12.2. and i finished!
then had choir. omg dexter is sibei no link.
suddenly can just laugh.. he's quite an interesting guy lol.

then after choir iffah asked me follow her to cjc.
so i decided to accompany her.
you owe me big time iffah!
gosh the trip there was awkard.
well, i told him bout my family tree and he was surprised why i nvr told him bout it. wtf
omg! the song damn nice lar. sad we cant sing it.
and he treat them so nice lar. i've never seen him laugh so much.
they like so open with him.

lost. so me and iffah took an empty bus to amk hub.
sadly fish and co full so went mac to eat.
then took train back home.

2mr linc's bday party!
haven buy for him prezzie >.<
guess have to chiong tomorrow.
think i won't be going tuition 2mr.

2008-01-24T22:12:00.000+08:00

24th jan
practically screwed.
had pe. omg i cant believe i cant fucking run long distance anymore.
nas sucks lar. slowly say out his number.
then took 20 mins to run 2.4. okay walk.
after recess got maths.
mr tan told us how well they did last year for O lvls.
happy for iffah. 12 LEH!
woa got psp le >.<

coz of his announcements of the seniors results.
the <<< of the class got F***ing noisy knn.
and didnt bother to do maths.
so he complained to ms kang bout us.
when ms kang came in.
it was like 20 mins of lecturing.

i feel very sad.
coz of a certain grp of ppl.
who ruin the things ppl try to do.
i felt very guilty coz i was one of the few who wrote the wrong format.
and. i pity her. becoz she either had very bad luck.
to have taken a class where practically everyone heck cares.
and filled wif people who complain when things dont go their way.
you can't have your cake and eat it too.
gosh still cant believe why i didnt choose to opt into another class.
i guess, our class is filled with heck care ppl.
i think 4F has a better attitude compared to us.
gosh, filled with liars who lie their way bout not doing their work.

no wonder ms thong didnt want to take our class.
and gosh. wtf lar. they got no f***ing manners lar.
talk to mrs teo like their friend lidat. wakao.

starting to hate my class.
really, i'm only staying in the class coz of kq, mr lee and ming hui, jj, warren and gang.
if not for them and the fun time i have in chinese wif kq and able to do dnt
at my own pace wif mr lee. i would have ran to 4D alr.

haiz. things not going very smoothly.
oh yea grats to dmnchoir seniors on ur O lvl results =)

2008-01-23T22:05:00.000+08:00

gosh.

so tired.
chiong dnt then nvr slp.
now suffering. walking like a mindless zombie.
if kq saw this she would say oh glad u noe :)

23th jan.
woke up at 7.10 lar!
reached skool late coz took my time.
didnt go for detention coz lazy.
so most probably going 2mr.
after skool went to cs to meet zerlina.
then met up wif rome and iffah to watch one missed call.

the movie kinda sucky.
starting quite scary.
then it kinda got boring.
i was stoning there.
btw spoiler. theres no fucking ending!

got home to do more journal.
2mr most probably gonna see the results!
hope that iffah gets 4 A1s... haha
okay hope everyone scores well.
ahhhh so hectic.

2008-01-21T23:09:00.000+08:00

20th jan.
woke up around 12.
played hellgate to around 2
was so tired so slept.
woke up at 5.40.
lol i was supposed to meet them at 5.30
rushed to esso bus stop.
then took 39 to yishun!
emo-ed on the bus.
when we reached there. we quickly go buy tix.
then ate at LJS.
me and bi bought the same set.
and competed to see who could eat faster as we were gonna be late.
i won ^^.
watched cloverfield.
gosh i wanted to vomit lar.
even though its like quite cool.
coz they videoed the whole process as they were moving to save the girl.
so its like u were there.
but sucky ending. wasted 9.50. >.<

21th jan.
almost late for skool!
i lost 10 dollars which was supposed to be my pocket money.
had geog. syazwan was so funny. haha
we had to come up wif alternate food sources.
so he said. we can build fishponds so we can fish the fish.
lol and nas said prime cuts as high quality meat rofl.
english! gosh so funny. nas wanted to sabo andy by telling him to say
i handle stress better.... because i masturbate at night. LOL heng he nvr say.
after english "remedial"
walked home because no money take bus >.<

i gotta start doing my work le.
cant play le >.<

2008-01-20T01:32:00.000+08:00

weeeeee.

19th jan.
woke up and played HELLGATE!
sadly lag like fuck. nvm

then went to change to go IKEA.
then rmbed gonna meet them. so i changed into another set of clothes.
chionged mac to meet jun jie who was eating mcspicy.
then chionged library to meet up with 4E dnt ppl.
an ting was latest. heng her bus came b4 27.

when we reached ikea.
mr lee treated the class to hot dog and a drink.
as the drink was self service.
nas and i took seconds. ^^
the hotdog is NICE. and its only $1. WTF

walked around ikea to find things relating to display.
took pics of the furniture.
gosh i realised how deprived i was of furniture.
so me and jun jie walked around like gays.
and took pics of people looking at things relating to display rofl.

met at wif the class at the restaurant at 4.
played anting's psp and helped her to unlock 2 cars in like 5 mins ^^.
then we were dismissed.
feeling bored, jj and i went to courts to look for things on display.
but sadly ikea pawns them. felt so disinterested after looking at their furniture.

went back to tampines.
ms yeo picked me up at the library.
went to pick yong and sc.
then went to kenny rogers to eat dinner.
next went to pick wei ting and jane at penin.

dropped wei ting at bugis and headed to the indoor stadium.
dropped yong at leisure park mall.
and went into the indoor stadium.
gosh, it was filled with people!
luckily our seats were at the last row and quite close to the middle.

the concert started late.
apparently, every seat had a green hand thingy.
on it were the words. I <3 U JAY!
wtf omg. gay.
the special effects were. OMG IMBA!
loads of lightning effects, sparkling things and cool graphics.
sadly, no wo bu pei. haha kq.
but overall i enjoyed his singing.
i'm quite pleased bcoz i heard some nice songs i've nvr heard b4.
the sound system was kinda sucky, couldn't really hear the background music.
and according to sc, he sang the wrong lyrics for most of the parts of every song.

lastly, went to bedok to eat supper.
and ms yeo sent us home one by one.
now, at home and have to face probs.
thx ms yeo, sc, yong, wt and jane for making 2day so memorable.
I'M IN NEED OF JAY CHOU SONGS LOL!
so if you have please send me ^^

2008-01-19T12:06:00.000+08:00

this week,
was purely slack.
so little homework compared to last week.
and so many undesirable things happened.

18th jan.
i have to buck up and start doing my journal.
i shouldnt keep playing hellgate =/
i've yet to start my research. i'm only at mindmap.
had choir.
sec 1s came in.
soprano can become class le lol.
while bass only had one junior. dexter.
he must be lucky/suay to have so many seniors taking care of him.
had tuition after that.
learnt how to see whether it was a maximum pt or minimum pt thru differentiation.

gonna have 3 tests.
next weeks gonna be hell.

2008-01-13T20:31:00.000+08:00

its the end of the week and the start of another.

12-13th jan.
stayed over at bryans house.
had tuition till 4 plus.
then it started to rain like mad.
lol thx bryan for coming to my rescue!
sadly qf couldnt make it to go watch avp2.
so bryan suggested i follow his family watch movie.
so i was like okay lo.

then in the end they treated me to sakae ^^
haha thanks sia. i ate sashimi for the 1st time =.=
then wanted to watch avp2 but cant so they rented dvds.
300, resident evil: extinction and tmnt.
i nvr watch any so i asked whether can stay over watch.
lol watch till 4 plus.

wow 300 is a nice movie.
it depicts the spartans determination and belief.
resident evil kinda boring.
while tmnt was nice :)
went to slp after that.
woke up at 8++
slept again and woke up at 11.
then went tm to buy shoes then went home.
thx for the hospitality and stay:)
disappointed at the hypocrity of a person.
haha the shopping trip made me realise.
that im a branded whore.
i have so many branded stuff. haha

2008-01-12T00:28:00.000+08:00

11th jan. FRIDAY!

finally, the 2mr is saturday!
found out that i topped class for a maths test on circles.
haha noobs... scored 7 by glancing the formulas for 20 secs.
i nvr even attended that part of the lesson xP
Fuck you fate. _!_ why did i have to suffer these few years.
next was english! haha komikal ali
i was literally laughing my ass off.
ms kang drawing really cmi. my features on the face is worse haha xD.
had to draw in the features of the criminals on the paper which she drew faces on.
i feel so dumb. i've been given false hope.
then dnt... gosh so stress. so much to do so lil time.
guess have to chiong.
yet i'm not pissed. maybe it's my fault for misinterpreting them
had choir after skool. kinda boring. i dunno.
its like the feeling just fade away. maybe coz tired.
but oh well, nonetheless i finally learnt how to sing it.
or maybe it's just that your words are fucking misleading
after choir, rushed home via taxi.
prepared to leave and met an ting at 6.20 at mrt.
woa an ting got psp sia! >.< *emos* then met wei lin and rowena and headed to tanjong pagar mrt station. met ms quek there and elroy and 2 teachers. stood for like nearly 2 hours. gosh... then the talk kinda slp inducing. ate dinner. wow they provided buffet! then went home on mrt. woa kena whack like hell sia. sorry lar! >.<
i don't know anymore. the feeling is really gone. i nvr even notice bout ur specs.
ran home to charge ipod. sadly the batt flat >.< color="#000000">thanks. you made me waste my energy, emotions and time on you for 1½year. happy ?
i've realised that
some things just won't come back once it's gone.
e.g friendship, feelings, respect and pride.
though people can try their best to earn it back or get it back but
its fruitless, futile and unachievable.
if you choose to ignore his flirting and stuff happens to you. don't blame me. i don't care anymore
2mr got a maths tuition.
gosh only me bryan and richelle on fridays. hell.
oh yea. im stronger than you think. please so fucking treat me like im so weak can?
hate it when people start suaning me coz im different.
dude. i don't go around and make jokes bout yours, eh?
lastly, saying that it's your fault over and over again doesn't cut it.
and i've got tons of homework to be completed by monday. sian

2008-01-09T21:55:00.000+08:00

its been so long since i last blogged...
mark reminded me i had a blog
so gonna have a brief post of the shitty stuff that happened from 3rd jan...

basically, had a pile of homework.
day after day of copying homework during recess from several people around me.

5th jan was the most screwed up day.
but it was a blessing in disguise?
had a bbq at prp though it rained.
so stressed lar. it was my first time having to control such a big group for games.
and it rained. and the events following that couldn't get any worse.
by the end of the day. i was pissed, confused and emo. but oh well,
i kinda miss the seniors and it was a meaningful day.

6th jan. sunday.
1st few weekend that i stayed at home. gosh i felt so miserable.
stared at my com though i had so much work to do. i have to go out this weekend.
or else u'll see me in the papers ^^.

7th jan. sec 1 auditions.
hectic. lol i haven't talked in front of a class. esp sec 1s in such a long time.
brought 1F to their classroom instead of the waiting room lol. luckily i had commonsense
and brought them to the correct class. phew.
then helped mark and arlene take care of 1E while they were mia.
had fever which i knew would go away.

8th jan. went to the beach wif kq estee and jerrold.
bad day. some stuff happened. it rained again.

9th jan. stayed after skool wif wc, moses, eugene, bryan and shaun.
waited for wc after skool wif eugene and shaun.
while they were having a chat bout girls =.=
i was doing dnt. gosh its hard.
after their meeting. we wanted to go yum yum to eat but wc was gone.
so went back to skool and ate there =.=
then had to wait for someone so helped wc wif a question
and helped bryan wif his journal. laughed until wanna cry coz of the qf joke haha >.<
then had to tok lo to someone. lol i wasnt doing much of the talking.
just listened and said some stuff. hope things are cleared between us.
friends? or strangers? roflmao.
hope things between us improve cause if its gonna be the same as the last time.
lol i don't know what to do le.

2007-12-23T23:02:00.000+08:00

woot finally i cut my hair!
but the sad part is it cost me 22 dollars lol...
but it was nice lar... 1st tym the person ask me wanna drink tea? lol im already under the effects of caffeine if i have somemore i 2night no need slp le.

woke up at 9.55 from bryans call... totally forgot that had to go out
then met lydia and bryan at mrt at around 10.10... waited for kok to reach
then went to bras basah complex to buy fabric paint but too ex for such a shitty quantity.
went bedok to eat... only drank ice lemon tea while the 3 other hungry ghosts went to buy food and stole from lydia... poor girl...
then went joo chiat to buy the cloth for the banner.
then me and qf went prp to do the games for farewell and decided to cut our hair at tamp
but tamp only got qb house so went 4th floor cut at super cuts...
after that went to watch national treasure wif kok's family. thx for the treat.
gosh i actually spent 22 dollars on a hair cut... if my mum finds out bout it im gonna get killed.

2mr going out wif the guys and 4 girls... =/
for christmas eve outing...
haiz if only u were going...

2007-12-20T03:32:00.000+08:00

woke up at 12.44... went to skool...
then helped the grp to buy food...
went to skool and gave them...
then went out again to buy food for myself and drinks for the girls wif moses.
then went back to skool...
then ate and followed bryan to eat.
then went to the surfing in room for debrief...
got back our reflections.
mr toh asked us to read out what could have been done better.
from that point on. i knew i was dead.
i got called out 1st...
well i learnt stuff bout myself from that 5-10 mins of standing.
then after the closure. went to that mini cafe again for the 3rd tym to drink caramel coffee.
then some stuff happened. got pissed. then went to play pool.
i got owned by bryan haha. i was just whacking the balls to vent my frustrations.
then after pool. went makan. then got home.
switch on the com le, then more crappy stuff. 19 must really be an unlucky number for me.
well, it was a bad day. i learnt many stuff bout myself or bout other ppl.
and i noe that it wont get any better till after my o lvls.

2007-12-17T23:57:00.000+08:00

bahh...

woke up at 12... met wc at 12.30 then bought christmas prezzie till i broke lol.
then went sakae eat buffet wif qf iffah and wc.
then went home to change while wc wrap gifts.
then went esplanade watch mjchoir caroling.
then went marina square eat dinner ^^.
then ran home to use com =)

sorry. i let my uneasiness get the better of me.
i believe that you have no feelings for him.
but i just cant help it when u keep asking me qns bout him.
its scary.
its lyk when i tink of it, it really gives me the feeling that maybe...
lyk imagine if i keep asking bout a girl, keep toking bout that girl.
its the same thing. if u wanna tok to him or tok bout him, im fine wif that ba.
just gotta learn to accept things.
just wanna say im sorry, so so sorry =/

2007-12-16T00:52:00.000+08:00

bah...
slept thru the day...
nth to do at home...
well at least 2mrs gonna be a better day...
going shop wif z3n and cd! for presents.
but i don't know whether to buy...

my standard... is crap...
i can't believe im so noob...

learnt something i shouldnt have known but thx...
at least now i noe how to treat you as...
well, theres somethings ppl shouldnt really hope for...
if u know things are happening... you should just accept it.
if u wanna choose him. im fine wif it.
well... im sorry for screwing things up for everyone.
because of my big mouth.

now im very very confused.
i don't know anything anymore.
ur feelings, mine, wad i want and wads gonna happen in the future.
im sorry. i just expect too much from everyone around me... esp you.

im afraid. if i raise my hopes.
and what happens next isnt the way i hoped it would be.
that i would fall so bad. i will never want to get up again.

i feel bad. for the troubles i have caused. or because of my presence. ppl are hurt.
im sorry. to everyone. for the things i've done.

bryans right. that happened in the past. the future is in my grasp.
i should look forward and not harp on the past.
feelings changed.

2007-12-15T00:27:00.000+08:00

ytd went to play pool.
everyone was late... cept me and qf
qf reached at 10.30. i reached around 11.
then soon after eugene and shawn came.
then bryan. went in the billiard room around 12.
played for 6 1/2 hours. there was an emo table.
then got a huge rat that was running around.
ppl lost to me and qf cause they shot the black ball into the wrong hole.
nice pics. and went tm after that wif qf, moses, davin, wc, eugene and shawn.
had a match wif n.L™ at 9...
but i wont blog bout it.

2day. woke up at 8.30 and left for bryans house.
went tuition wif him. i was so tired.
then went shopping wif him, qf, zerlina and kehua.
bought 1 black, white striped collar long sleeve, 1 brown long sleeve collar shirt
and 1 black short sleeve collar shirt. all 2gt 71 dollars =) thx zerlina
then chose some girl clothes and thought it was for guys.

wtf... pissed wif me when i nvr even say much.
pissed wif me for sympathising and feeling guilty?
and using the match as an excuse to vent ur anger?
bah...
this isn't going anywhere. i don't dare do a shit
cause i'm afraid i think too much and that it's just my wishful thinking.
boring weekend ahead... anyone wants to go out? =)

2007-12-13T01:36:00.000+08:00

bah...
2day was stupid.
wanted to watch golden compass...
everyone was late lol...
waited till everyone came. then left around 2.30
watched golden compass...
ending was stupid haha... felt lyk kena cheated.
then go back tamp kfc...
shared buddy meal wif qf...
then went home.
gonna shop wif bryan at giordano... now got 115 haha..

pics from europe:

me and a tall spanish guy. omg hes lyk even taller than qf!

kq and leon at primate's palace after the comp

eugene and tb in 2nd hotel LOL.

christmas tree in cesky krumlov

tb and eugene again =)

leon, tracy, me, kq and judaxil after comp

me and kq... aww shes short than me =x

kq and tracy at some restaurant in bratislava

me and ju at primate's palace. i look spastic >.<

iris, tracy, kq, leon and ju

yea thats all bout it. didnt really use my cam coz lazy and got grounded haha.
though it was not as fun as the last, it was so much more memorable.
hope can go there again.

2007-12-12T02:34:00.000+08:00

woot.
finally back from europe.
damn... missed my 22 inch LCD monitor
intel core 2 quad processor =x...
met up wif iffah yk and estee.
went to airport.
check in, sang ping an ye, took pics and finally got onto the plane.
was supposed to sit beside mindy but changed wif joanna cause she was sitting wif shaun.
after 10 hours reached istanbul, transited to vienna...
then sat beside joshua and beside him was leon.
after almost 18 hours of transport finally reached vienna.
then took 4 hours of bus to cesky krumlov.
very tiring... had practices and no sight seeing.
roomed wif joel, who so graciously charged my nano =) and sent me songs.
wow there was a bath tub! everytym i bathed i would soak in it for 15 mins?
then had dinner at the restaurant.
was pissed coz some stuff happened.
day 2. had practices and sight seeing. only had 1 hour of it coz grounded. =/
day 3 went to bratislava and roomed wif tb, eugene and ks!
4 of us squeezed into 2 beds bitched till late while eating cup noodles.
day 4, had pract and sightseeing... bitched again
day 5, competition. we did quite okay for o magnum and ping an ye.
cantate was nice =) while sarba was shyt...
had 3 hours of free time where we chiong-ed mac
drank capucino... =.=
then went back to the primates palace to take pics =)
went up and sat for 3 hours listening to adult choirs.
then went to eat dinner and went back to hotel for reflection. bitched again
day 6 went to collect results. got a gold =) more sightseeing
day 7 went to vienna to see schebrunn palace...
cool place... at the end of the tour bought souvenirs...
then went for lunch, drank only hot choc which was superb.
went back and drove to the hotel. then got ready to watch opera.
was cool. nice seats and view.
then went to eat at plutzer for dinner... haha eugene took some pics which were unappropriate.
went back for quiz and stayed up till 4 toking to tb.
last day. kena grounded. coz i was caught by ms yeo for being in koks room.
coz wanted to take back my boiler and stuff.
couldnt tok and take pics and shop.
chiong-ed shopping at vienna airport.
then went up the plane to instanbul.
played the rubiks cube... omg i cant solve it lar. so difficult and when i see judaxil do it.
i was lyk... ghey omg...
then flew back to sing. sat wif shaun again.
gonna post the pics 2mr

2007-12-02T22:42:00.000+08:00

2day is t3h day gonna fly off to europe... woots...
9 days not in sing... dun miss me =)
gonna miss everyone lar... anting, sp, the 3b ppl, jj and gang and esp my com haha...
i keep having a feeling that i forgot some things that are needed to bring...

though i can see you for the trip...
we wont tok anw...
u trying to avoid me? or izzit that u dun lyk awkard moments?
but it seems that u're afraid of me?
i dont dare tok to you in real life... coz i dun noe how u feel towards me...
im afraid of saying something wrong...
you don't need me in your life...
i can't bring you happiness or joy...
neither can i comfort you in real life... cause i don't dare and because you have other people around you who care for you...
yes, you may piss me off... but its because i care for you...
i just want to be there for you...
you don't tell me bout your problems... so what are you gonna do wif them? bottle them up?
baahhh im sorry i expect too much from you...
its happening again lar... jus im in ur shoes and u are in mine...
hope you enjoy yourself on the trip and find better friends =)

2007-12-01T22:50:00.000+08:00

bah...
ytd pool was crap =)
played 3 games... 1 wif mark against nic and wei chong
2nd was wif nic against estee and judaxil
3rd was wif eugene...
won 2 lost 1... lost the last haha...
was a bad day lar...
i stone there dunno wad to do...
sat there for 1 hr plus?
dunno wad to do ba...
then played lo...
tried to enjoy myself...
but cant coz some1 wasnt...
feel guilty lar... ask you go then u nvr enjoy urself...
went back home... keyboard spoil... wtf
all bcoz the usb cock up...
baahhh...

so many things i wanna say... but i cant...
mayb its jus me lacking guts...
after mustering my courage to ask u play...
then u dun wanna be in the same team...
i felt lyk u're trying to avoid me
guess we can nvr tok in real life ba...
theres a gap in every friendship...
it seems lyk it is as long as the distance between the sun and the earth...
i jus cant stop looking...

gonna fly on monday... which is lyk 1 more day...
hope nth happens to me though... haha
so can come back and dota =) and go play pool again...

2007-11-25T16:44:00.000+08:00

ba...

choir very stressed...
been performing very badly ytd and 2day wif little improvement...

and theres the thing wif my dad and bro...
that idiot can play lyk 5-6 hours wifout considering wad tym i slp...
my dad obviously doesnt care bout me...
he only cares whether my bro got play enuf...
he only got 200 for psle and hes acting lyk woa... so good...
if i got 200... i dunno how to face my relatives lar...
they treat the elder... who got 232 for psle... and 79 in lvl and 6 in class lyk shyt... my dad obviously doesnt gif a shyt wad happens to me...
and they treat the younger... who got 200 for psle... lyk an angel...

pffft parents so freaking biased... and the new com? lyk not mine...
i cant fcuking join most of the games... cant host... so basically i cant play...
my bro hogs the com and my dad will only "chase him off" at 9? when they wanna go home... then take around 1/2 hr till he will log off... wtf is this...

lol... gonna buy jane a gigolo and joel a prostitute from europe... haha
dun tink the tour will be that fun though =/

2007-11-22T22:48:00.000+08:00

fuck...

2day such a bad day... well it didnt start that bad...
went to skool to collect raymonds ps2 and keyboard...
then went qf and mark went to my place to play guitar heroes...
after that went sectionals... finally we sang cantate in one shot wifout going out of tune...
almost...
then played guitar heroes for 30 mins...
then ps2 on button got stuck... raymond must be sad... his only entertainment spoilt...
played mahjong after that...
went to eat mac...
got home... found out had router... cant host games till i portforward...
and did i mention the lag it brings... its lyk my bro hog on the com...
i get to use lyk wad? 3-4 hours a day while he plays 6-8?
... my parents... and my dad... so fcuked up...
cant play means cant play le... u dunno anything jus shut the fuck up...
pfft... pissed off wif so many things... myself... for the countless of naive actions i did...
my dad... for getting pissed off at me coz the old com got prob...
baah... nths going ryt...

2007-11-19T00:31:00.000+08:00

wtf wtf wtf...

choir... stressed... cantate is screwed...

2day went raymond house for sectionals...
after that played guitar heroes =)
so fun... ^^

baahhh...

you telling me that u dunno why u treat me btr than him...
so u feel that either i shouldnt be treated well or that u want to treat him well
wtf... im so fcuking tired... of waiting for a reply in a chat..
staring at the screen... lyk an idiot... waiting...
but u noe wad... u dun care do u...
gah... this is ridiculous... why cant we tok in public...
u dunno why u treat me btr than him? i dun even noe why i treat u so well...
baahhh i realised... everytym... i tok to you... i feel sad...
that this is wad it is now...
we don't tok that much... neither do we tok in public...
hmmm go out... thats lyk woa... so impossible...
im so afraid of asking you out... im afraid of getting rejected...
its lyk everytym i ask... there is a definite yet simple answer... no
!!!! argh... fuck man...
u don't even believe in yourself... pffft why am i so stupid to believe in you...
gah... i hate the situation i'm...

2007-11-08T23:51:00.000+08:00

bbbaaahhh...

2days deepavali!

woke up at 8.30 coz got diarrhoea =/
from seoul garden...

played dota... then went for sectionals...
cool we used raymond's condo function room
then there were 2 kids that were scrutinising us =/
making fun of us... damn funny lar...

then break for 15 mins... played at the PLAYGROUND...
haha remarkable... i cant fit into the small see saw seat...

overall... it was damn useful and good... and funny too =)
and we played musical chairs using the songs from the keyboard...
then when bryan or joshua give speech... han wen choose song
to try and make the atmosphere... but he screws up most of the tym...
after sectionals... basses wanted go play lan.. no com...
go play bball... ball no air... so went home and went off to challenger
to buy hellgate: london ^^
but now need wait for new com... =/ sadded
coz scared can only be installed on one com...

2mr choir... pffft do or die...
probably gonna stone in choir again lyk i use to...
msn getting boring... no one to tok to... coz u seldom come online...
sad... im not a useful fren anyway...

2007-11-08T01:23:00.000+08:00

bbaaaaahhhhh...

sian... choir... we're lyk deproving...
if we screw up on friday... we're screwed...
davin must be damn happy LOL ^^...
have fun there... obviously some1 dont dare to turn back haha...

late for skool as usual... 1/2hr late
then had physics... after recess 2 hr of chem...
it seems that i'm the only person in class that looks forward to mdm sharifah's period
the whole class seem to want her to gif up her periods to kang =/
lol mole is fun ^^...

i dunno wad com im gonna get though... =/
i wanna play hellgate:london
it seems cool haha...

and one last thing... happy deepavali to nitish sara and reuben! LOL
haha reuben is christian =x

2007-11-06T00:06:00.001+08:00

baaaahhhhh...
i dun understand why...
my mum told me that i would be getting a new com... i was so happy...
then my dad told me he would be buying it on wednesday...
i was excited...
but i found out... that it was for my family...
the com was to be shared wif my bro, dad and i had no say in it...
i feel that it's unfair lar... i studied for my exams... in hope that i would get a com for myself...
i got pretty good results though i know i could get better...
but at least i changed and was independent enough to study for my future...
my brother didnt even study much...
and i have to share wif him my reward? wtf its so not fair...
everything that i got as a reward... i had to share wif my bro...
ps1, ps2, gameboy and now even a computer?
pffft... even a phone... my phone is lyk 6111... my bro has a N71... which i wanted...
nice... so next tym... my parents get me a car i have to share it too?
wtf... i study... dun study... oso the same... my parents not concerned bout it...
my mum mayb have... but its still abit nia...
my dad... woa nice... nvr even tok to me bout my results ever since i got my report book...
i don't know why...
my luck... is imba... too good to be true...
but it has it's setbacks...

had choir 2day... came to skool 1/2 hour late... missed 1/2 period of physics...
then had geog... =.=
after recess dnt...
lol gonna go ikea next week... gonna "steal" 2 periods of thong WooT...
but she claims the topics can be covered in 3 hours...
still have lyk 4 hours of her over this 2 weeks =/
then had mock exam.. wrote on obstacles...
crap... i tink i will fail
then had choir all the way till 7...

2mr going sg ^^... =x
gotta start to get serious for tour le...
mus be motivated to do my best...

2007-11-01T22:29:00.000+08:00

went trick or treatin ytd at chan heng's apartment block ^^
quite fun... had a misadventure...
we met at interchange... so me n bryan chionged to interchange after choir
then took 67...
we missed the stop... coz we thot can take 15 to east coast there...
then we walk to safra bus stop...
then realised cnt so we walk back 1 more stop and wait for 10...
when we were on the overhead bridge... 10 came =/
waited so freaking long for the next bus to come...
then on the bus... bryan rmbed that near his house got esso station... so we got off
then realised that we stopped too early... retarded
we walked straight wifout knowing where to go...
walk walk walk... saw 10... ran towards the nearest bus stop...
then boarded it and reached his place -.-
ate mcspicy while wei long, ming yi and bryan ate big mac...
then we go up to the 20th floor... wif NTUC plastic bags... while bryan took a toys r us bag...
we rang the bell wif our masks... and said trick or treat...
but most of the flats were either empty or had no sweets...
so didnt get much...

group photo ^^( im the guy bside the skull face <<<<)

bryan= the pirate...
aloysius= alien
wei long= skull
linc=the slut/witch face lol
ming yi=the gorilla
chan heng=the skull that has a spider on the top =)

Nov' 01

i realised i've been coming late to skool and as the days go by... i get even later...
2day reached skool around 8.15...
went to dnt workshop...
boring... coz mr lee went thru dubai's architecture...
they built an island that looked lyk a palm on the sea...
which is lyk so freaking cool...
he said that u can be born there and die there without ever leaving it
cool eh?
then got english...
lol....
ms yews lyk so funny...
she keep suaning kawshigan haha...
then her jokes are dirty lol... as in she does not explain in detail..
but leave our imagination to run wild... and think of dirty stuff lol...
2mr got choir... gotta bring ethnic costume =/
then have to wear baju kurong... =/ sian...
happy b'day mum... ^^

2007-10-29T22:12:00.000+08:00

baaaaahhhhh...
2days the 1st day of skool... for 3 weeks gonna have skool for 4 n 1/2 hours...
and on mondays wednesdays and fridays have choir...
nice...

in an attempt to come to skool late... i woke up at 7.20...
woot im gonna be late i thought...
i left home at 7.40
on the bus... i saw alot of sec 3s...
woa so many ppl oso coming late arh... i thought...
stupid me... skool started at 8...
lol...
had english... damn funny ms yew is a funny teacher...
then had maths... matrices... easy
then had 2 hours of chineses... cmi sia
woa damn long... i stoning there lyk no ones business...
our chinese teacher is my sec 1 and 2 teacher... ^^ nice she rmbs all of us...
after that went to eat lunch and went for sectionals...
then had choir...
bass was imba... till the last part coz of the et sa li te part...
lol... was asked to sing a super low note... had to sing doh... then go 1 octave down
the doh was loud... then after that when go down...
nth was heard lol... kinda dumb though...
after choir went to eat wif wc eugene shaun kok ks jerrold n tb...
ate 2 egg prata n chicken briyani.. gosh my appetite...
then went to play the catching thing at jia jing bbt shop...
LOL spent lyk 20 mins there... they tried to catch the tigger... but failed
then they tried to get the minnie... kok wanted to get it for shermaine...
but got ksed by a small kid...
he went up to us and said can i try?
then he got it...
we got pawned by a small kid LOL...
eugene spent lyk 12 dollars on it... kok 5 ks 5 shaun 3 and me 1...

its impossible for me n u to get 2gt
coz of the difference in religion blah blah blah...
yet i still dunno y its so difficult to forget bout u...
gosh... this is my retribution... for making u go thru...
getting hurt by some1 u loved...

fcuk y cant i get over u...
cb fcuk if u dun fcuking care bout me jus say lar...
zzzzz u gif davin false hope... wad u wan him to wait 2 years for u?
are u that cruel? to make some1 wait for u that long?
nice... ur sarcasm... i dun even tok to u in that tone...
baaahhh wadever.. i dunno how im gonna survive in choir...
esp when u are standing opposite me...
i mus fcuking abstain... i mus not tok to u...
coz its the only way to forget bout u...
even though i enjoy toking to u...

2007-10-28T23:27:00.000+08:00

been watching movies for the past 3 days even though i'm not suppose to...
friday after meet the parents... went to watch brother wif xd n mh...
^^ passed all subs... got 6 in class n 80 in lvl ^^
sat... went out wif nitish n gang watch the seeker at vivo... dumb movie sia
so boring... the guy only use so little of his powers... and the last part was so predictable...
2day went out wif 3b ppl n mh go bowling...
waa my bowling now very bad...
after bowling went to eat...
i ate chicken chop rice n chicken rice... man my appetite is growing lyk siao...
after eating... we went to the arcade to slack...
played the air puck thingy...
damn fun lol...
bryan hit the puck so hard it flew n hit lincoln's head...
then played daytona...
after that took mrt to vivo...
bought ticks to Lars and the real girl...
then go slack at toys r us...
was playing qf's psp slim... played naruto
i got owned by insane... though when bryan played... it look ez... wtf
played half way... no batt =/ sry qf
they were wearing the haloween masks... that were freaky lol...
after that watched the movie...
the storyline is nice and the movie funny but according to qf its too slow lol
after movie went to play arcade again...
played PARA PARA LOL...
then can see... we played lyk 4 tyms... each tym got 5 rounds...
got 1st, 2nd 4th n 5th...
coz the highscore only can put 4 letters... we put noor LOL...
after that went home...
choirs gonna be intensive... =/
haiz... but wad to do... gotta pia lo... plus got 3 weeks of skool...

pffft... though u say that u care n blah blah blah... wtf
i dun tink u regard me as a fren... coz u have more impt ppl...
but nvm ba... i gotten used to it le...
gotta bottle up my probs...
coz the only person i can tok to bout my probs...
is the person who i dun wanna bother...
so... its okay if u continue to treat me lidat...

2007-10-23T22:31:00.000+08:00

=/ sry for the older post... jus expressing my thoughts... =)
happy bday erika!

3D chalet...
fun lar... sadly i not in 3d... but still came...
although very extra... it was fun...
the 1st day... quite okay...
had sectionals... then went there...
played tai ti mahjong...
then around 4-5 went cycling around pasir ris park...
damn nice lar the oil rig when at night...
wif me were samuel moses yi liang n sadly i forgot the last guy =/
then all took bike then i take scooter...
i lead them lol... most part of it lar...
came back... then luckily when we reached... it started to drizzle... heng arh
then bathed n went to the M.A.D...
lame shyt the skool made us go pasir ris park in the rain
then make us wait till 9.30 to collect our burger mc chicken n apple juice...
but since me n mx ate le we went back 1st
then left for home to collect shirt n went joel house...
slept there for lyk 1 hour... then played MEEPO WOOT lol... helped some1 win p3ng
then the the some1 n p3ng played wif me hahaha...
after that went back to chalet...
played mahjong again n went to downtown east to buy food...
coz i didnt pay a single cent... i bought food...
they barbeque... me n olivier played badminton...
quite fun.. lol didnt noe he was such a sociable person...
then played mahjong again...
around 10 plus got chnl 5 show...
damn lame... damn anti climax damn no link... tried to slp but cnt coz the girls were shouting
after that... finally went to slp
slept thru erikas birthday celebration... ^^ LOL 16 le can do loads of stuff...
came to skool for choir... after that went home... now damn tired..

2007-10-22T10:49:00.000+08:00

^^ roflmao...
you must be bored enuf to read my blog...

haiz... i feel dumb... coz i trust my friends too much...
maybe bcoz i know many ppl... and regard them as my frens...
judging at the way you are treating me... im sure it will happen again...
jus lyk last tym... ppl neglect me even though i care for them as frens...
even though its not so serious... i know that it will continue...

haiz... y ppl have so many cliques...

secondly, i really dunno you treat me this way...
i really wanna befren you... mayb u tink we are...
but look at us... we dun tok in real life... and dun tok as much as we used to...
im so sick and tired of staring at the screen while u are doing something n u dun even say lar...
c'mon y are u so f***ing afraid of toking to me in real life?
you complain bout having very bad frens or backstabbers...
but right in front of u... is a person... who wans to be frens wif u...
who wont backstab or tok bad about u...
a person who wont ps u or wad shyt...

y are u so fcuking afraid... you are lyk running away from it...
u used to ask me whether we could sms/talk...
now i very bored... wanna tok to some1
i ask u... pffft... u come up wif stupid reasons...
if u dun wanna tok jus say... dun come up wif stuff... zzzzz
mayb it is my retribution for treating u lidat last tym...
but now when im willing to change... and treat u btr...
u dun gif me a chance...

yes mayb we are jus not fated... its lyk god is playing wif us...
i really dunno what to do... im stuck here... left alone...

2007-04-29T01:55:00.000+08:00

hi... long tym no see...
haven had tym to update my blog bcoz of
dnt, skool, choir, homework and life...
these few weeks had been chaotic...
on 17th april was our syf...
btw we got GOLD....
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WITH HONOURS haha... yea i very lag at posting it
then kinda busy bcoz need to catch up wif skool work
that had been missed due to syf...
and now the whole of 3E who is taking dnt
has to do the equivalent work of wad we had done in
3 months in 1 week... and pass up on monday >.<
how to do sia...
but we mus believe in miracles...
so this is from me to everyone in 3E dnt...
happy chionging xD... detail development SUX...
and our mid year is jus around the corner...
how to cope sia...
elena... an ting... got any prob wif maths come find me hor
or mayb jin yong or ah feng...
and mus pass wif flying colours hor =)
so happy mugging n hope everyone passes wif flying colours...
esp... to ppl who i noe
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